kearstyn
My story??? It starts off like so many others out there. I was "big" as a child and yo-yo'd up and down for years. I was always the "big" kid in school. The most I would ever loose would be around 50lbs and then it seemed to come right back on when whatever diet I was on ended. I gained 80lbs with my son when I was 22. I thought, "I can eat anything because once this baby is born it will come right off". Yeah...right. I lost about 7lbs (which was what my son weighed) and then gained it all back being a stay at home mom. I developed post partum depression which went un treated for the first 2 years of my sons life. It got progessively worse to the point I didnt want to be around anymore. I hated the way I looked and felt. I began to "hate" my husband too. The day of my sons 4th birthday my husband told me he wanted a divorce. My life seemed to be ending. One good thing came out of it though. THERAPY! I went to my first therapist appointment and loved it. Soon after I decided to get gastic bypass. The BEST decision I have ever made for myself!!! I still see my therapist on a regular basis. I believe that its not only the physical part of you that needs help but the mental part also. I am struggling right now with the fact that my body looks so much different from what my mind says I am. I have hard times with compliments. I love them and hate them both at the same time. I will keep going to therapy for however long I have to. My physical and mental health go hand in hand!
