Kim82507
Holy cow...it has taken me forever to figure this out....but I did it. So here I am. Well lets see, I have three wonderful (most of the time) children. Two boys, 21 and 19 and an 18 year old daughter. I did some research and tried to have the Y-en done in about 1998 but my insurance changed and I couldn't have it done. In the mean time, I had a very very bad relationship with my ex....he got into drugs and was verbally very abusive....so I withdrew more and more all the time. So between working and staying home cooking and such...I took up to eating more than I had before. But when he became verbally abusive to the kids...I couldn't handle anymore....I left and took the kids with me. I moved to the other side of town that we lived in. So I was still close enough but yet had a little distance. He was so mad...never seen him so mad...but I said I would come back if he got clean and got some help and not from me....real help....he seemed to be doing pretty good...and one night he fell off his wagon.....and it was one of the worst nights of my life...i was never scared of him until that night. So I decided that we needed a little more space between us because it just wasn't working...so I moved about a half an hour away. He would call all hours of the night...this was depressing me so much more that I was eating more and more and gaining and gaining weight and I just couldn't seem to get control of it at this point. As I was moving his mom had a type of stroke...it was horrible....doctors didn't think she was going to make it so we all had to go into the hospital and decide what to do for her. At this point me leaving his mom it pushed him over the edge....a week later....after spending several days preparing....he took his life. This was the worst day of my life....I had to be strong for my kids and all I wanted to do was crawl up in a ball and sleep.....so I started gaining weight again.....I seemed at this point after dealing with his mom to loss about 20 lbs and now I just packed it back on....
I knew I had to do something for myself as well as for my kids......So I waited and did everything my doctor asked me to do and begged him and begged him to allow me to have the surgery....so when I finally got new insurance at my job, I think I had it for about 2 months, I tried agian and my doctor agreed to everything and bammmm everything went thru so fast. I couldn't believe it. So when he FINALLY agreed. I think he signed the papers to send in to Dr. Farhan on August 5, 2007 and my surgery was set for September 25, 2007. The insurace didn't even question it. I was so excited....all the way up until I woke up after surgery and thought to myself what in the world have I done to myself??? LOL
I asked myself that for about 3 days. But since then it has been smooth sailing. I had ONE and only ONE dumping issue. I drank a boost cause it is high in protien but as I find out now ...high in sugar too....so no more of that I thought I was going to DIE!!
I was in the hospital for two days......and started walking on my first night home....by one week I was walking over a mile...now let me tell you...I haven't walked in over a mile in good heavens I have no clue how long! But it felt great....Tried to sign up for Curves yesterday but they close at 7?? Who closes at 7?? I am slightly worried about signing up because I often work late....so I don't know for sure how that is going to work out but it cost about $100 bucks for the sign up fee and I found out that my insurance will pay half of it so I am going to try it and make sure at least a couple days a week i don't work late.
I have decided that I am only going to weigh myself once a week. The day I was going home from the hospital I weighed myself and I was at 305.4. When I went in for my two week check-up and get those horrible staples out....I was down to 281 so I was slightly happy... I am kind of excited to see what today brings....fill you in more later :)
