I can do it!

Sep 16, 2009

It's day 3 of the stage 2 liquid diet and offically 12 days left until my surgery.  The second day was very hard for me, I wanted to eat something, anything!!  But I made it through and day 3 hasn't been so hard (yet).  I'm nervous and excited and I can't wait for this to happen!  I don't know if I miss food or chewing stuff or what but it is a lot more difficult than I thought and it takes so much will power, it's hard being strong.  I keep telling myself  "this helps, it shrinks the liver and makes surgery and healing times faster", but another part of me keeps saying "just having a effin' cheeseburger, no one will know"  This time it's diffrent, I'm ready for this change and when before I would have caved and gone and gotten that cheeseburger, now I feel like I would know if I cheated and I would care!!  This time there is no more fooling around, I can do this and I will change and take control of my life.  As I said before I am ready to live my life without limitations.  I have so many thoughts and ideas going through my head, and I'm super excited about all the changes that will be happening to my body, my health and my mind!   A new body, new clothes, new outlook and perspectives on things, and a new lease on life.  At 32 I will have the freedom to finally put myself out there and not shy away from the things that my weight held me back from.   

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