klungo
been a while
Mar 21, 2007
so it has been a while since i have been on here. things are so different for me now. I am down 140 lbs and I cannot believe I am the same person. I love the fact that I have not changed. my divorce will be final by the end of the month and there is some sorrow that my ex was not able to see the future, but then again not su much as I have meet someone whois amazing and loves me so much and for who I am. It is all amazing how much my life has changed is such a short time. I am so happy now and cannot belive God has blessed me so much. I will never forget what it as like before and how different it is now. I thank God everyday for allowing this to happen in my life.
updating
Oct 28, 2006
I am in the process of getting final approval for my surgery. My husband and I are both working with Dr. Douglas Krahn. We have seen him for our surgical consult and are working on getting our test done to get final approval. It is very scary and exciting at the same time.
1/30/2006 - I have all my pre op test scheduled. After Feb 7th I am waiting on my pre op classes and final approval from the insurance co. So far so good. I am starting to get a little scared, but I figure that is normal.
2/12/2006 - I am finished with my pre op testing thus far. I had my upper GI and Galbladder US done on the 7th. My next dr appt is 3/2 so I am playing the hurry up and wait game. I am just glad that the testing is done and I am still moving forward. I will update again after my dr appt on 3/2.
3/6/2005 - So we saw the doc on the 2nd, good and bad news. I gained 1.5 lbs, so they were not happy about that, but told me to keep trying as it will only benefit me for surgery. Good News we are currently going through our required classes, 1 a week for the next 3 weeks. We have our next appt with the surgeon on the 13th of April and then he can submitt for final approval from the insurance co. They said that could take 2-3 weeks. Once they have final approval they will schedule our surgeries. They are schedulaing about 2 mo our right now so they said I was looking at June for my surgery. I will update again after the 13th and I have more info. Until then I will just keep praying that God gives me peace as I am starting to get nervous.
4/3/2006 - ok so I am getting tired of waiting. I have my next appt on the 13th of this month but it seems like it has been so long since my last. Godd news, if I stay on track I should have the 12lbs the dr wanted me to lose gone. At my last dr appt i weighed 327. according to my scale at home I am down to 320. it is not a ton but it is a start. I have 10 more days to lose 5 more lbs, I think I can do it. I read this book called the seven secrest of slim people and have done pretty much everything the book says. It seems to be working better for me then any other plan I have tried. Plus my therapist said it is a good book to read to help you deal with why you overeat. We had 4 classes our dr required us to take and in those classes that talked alot about needing the get yourself mentally and emotionally prepaired no only for the surgery but for after the surgery as well. That is why my therapist recommended this book to me, so I could start figuring out what is is that makes me want to eat and stuff like that. It has been really helpful and I read it in like 2 hours. It is a really quick read. Anyway 10 more days until my paperwork gets submitted for final authorization. I should have a surgery date in the next few weeks,,,,, YEAH !!!!!!!
April 15th - tax day...lol well I had my last appt with my dr before they submit for final approval. I have lost 14lbs and the dr is much happier with me. I am now just waiting for final approval from the insurance company and I will get my surgery date.....Yeah!!!!!!!
April 24th - I got word from my surgeons office. I have been approved for the surgery. Now I am just waiting for the surgeon to schedule me for my 4 hour pre op class and at the end of the class I will get my surgery date. I am starting to get excited, but just a little. I will be more excited once I have my actual surgery date. I will update again once I have my 4 hour class scheduled.
May 19th - I had my 4 hour class yesterday and at the end of the class I received my surgery date. I am scheduled for surgery on June 19th. YEAH !!!!!! I am really excited and scared, it is all finally becoming a reality and I cannot wait. I know it is going to go by very fast and before I know it I will be headed to the hodpital for my surgery. I will updated again soon, I have a pre op appt on the 13th with my surgeon and on the 5th I need to go get my lab work, ekg and chest x-ray done.
June 9 - 10 days and counting... It is crunch time and I am getting really nervous. This is such a big thing, but the funny part is I am not afraid of the surgery, I am afraid of being skinny. I have always been heavy, I am not sure I will know what to do with myself when I lose the weight. I guess it is the fear of the unknow since I have never been thin. I am getting excited as well, I mean 10 more days and I will be on the losing side, it has been a long journey to get to this day. I am excited for the next journey to begin.
June 18th - less then 24 hours to surgery and I am getting excited and nervous. I cannot wait for this all to be done and be on the losing side. I am praying every moment that everything will be ok and I will be out of the hospital quickly and back home. I cannot believe the day is finally here and yet I have moments when I wish I had a little more time to think about it all. I will update again when I am out of the hospital.
6/25/06 - well I am done, surgery is over and I am home. I am not sure how to feel right now. I am feeling sad and happy. I am frustrated for two reasons. You know you should eat but your not hungry and the thought of food makes you sick. also becasue I miss eating. I guess this is the hard part, waiting for your body to heal so you can eat again, but knowing you will never eat the same again. I have had my doubts that I did the right thing. I sometimes wish i would have been strong enough to lose the weight without the surgery. I am sure that once I am feeling better and the weight starts to drop I will feel differently.
7/22/06 - I am doing much better now. I am past the sickness and not wanting to eat. I am taking it one day at a time and feel a bit like a baby with eating though. I am having some emotional issues right now though. I am starting to feel like a woman again and I want to take the time to do the little things for myself. I have been putting in more time in getting ready and stuff like that. There was a man at the office who I was sure was intrested in me and I found out he was dating some one. It was a bit of a blow to me, I am still feeling fat and like that is the reason he does not like me. I don't know I guess I am being extra sensitive right now. With my pending divorce plus this guy being involved with someone else. I am just feeling alone. Like there will never be someone out there for me.
9/25/2006 - WOW it has been a while since I checked in here. I am now down 80 lbs and currently on a plataue. Which really sucks, I have been stuck here for 2+weeks. I know it is just a matter of time before this works itself out, but it doesn't make it less frustrating. I am feeling great and I have started to the gym and am working out with a personal trainer. It is going great so far and I am really looking forward to start firming things up. I have offically file for divorce and wish the best of luck to my ex. He went through the surgery about a month ago and I hear he is doing great. I am just looking forward to starting my new life with my new body. I have a long way to go I know that but I feel better about myself then I have in years. I will honestly say I am afraid the weight loss with stop now and I will be stuck where I am at. I know that is not the case but when you go through these plateaus it is hard to realize it is just for a moment.
1/30/2006 - I have all my pre op test scheduled. After Feb 7th I am waiting on my pre op classes and final approval from the insurance co. So far so good. I am starting to get a little scared, but I figure that is normal.
2/12/2006 - I am finished with my pre op testing thus far. I had my upper GI and Galbladder US done on the 7th. My next dr appt is 3/2 so I am playing the hurry up and wait game. I am just glad that the testing is done and I am still moving forward. I will update again after my dr appt on 3/2.
3/6/2005 - So we saw the doc on the 2nd, good and bad news. I gained 1.5 lbs, so they were not happy about that, but told me to keep trying as it will only benefit me for surgery. Good News we are currently going through our required classes, 1 a week for the next 3 weeks. We have our next appt with the surgeon on the 13th of April and then he can submitt for final approval from the insurance co. They said that could take 2-3 weeks. Once they have final approval they will schedule our surgeries. They are schedulaing about 2 mo our right now so they said I was looking at June for my surgery. I will update again after the 13th and I have more info. Until then I will just keep praying that God gives me peace as I am starting to get nervous.
4/3/2006 - ok so I am getting tired of waiting. I have my next appt on the 13th of this month but it seems like it has been so long since my last. Godd news, if I stay on track I should have the 12lbs the dr wanted me to lose gone. At my last dr appt i weighed 327. according to my scale at home I am down to 320. it is not a ton but it is a start. I have 10 more days to lose 5 more lbs, I think I can do it. I read this book called the seven secrest of slim people and have done pretty much everything the book says. It seems to be working better for me then any other plan I have tried. Plus my therapist said it is a good book to read to help you deal with why you overeat. We had 4 classes our dr required us to take and in those classes that talked alot about needing the get yourself mentally and emotionally prepaired no only for the surgery but for after the surgery as well. That is why my therapist recommended this book to me, so I could start figuring out what is is that makes me want to eat and stuff like that. It has been really helpful and I read it in like 2 hours. It is a really quick read. Anyway 10 more days until my paperwork gets submitted for final authorization. I should have a surgery date in the next few weeks,,,,, YEAH !!!!!!!
April 15th - tax day...lol well I had my last appt with my dr before they submit for final approval. I have lost 14lbs and the dr is much happier with me. I am now just waiting for final approval from the insurance company and I will get my surgery date.....Yeah!!!!!!!
April 24th - I got word from my surgeons office. I have been approved for the surgery. Now I am just waiting for the surgeon to schedule me for my 4 hour pre op class and at the end of the class I will get my surgery date. I am starting to get excited, but just a little. I will be more excited once I have my actual surgery date. I will update again once I have my 4 hour class scheduled.
May 19th - I had my 4 hour class yesterday and at the end of the class I received my surgery date. I am scheduled for surgery on June 19th. YEAH !!!!!! I am really excited and scared, it is all finally becoming a reality and I cannot wait. I know it is going to go by very fast and before I know it I will be headed to the hodpital for my surgery. I will updated again soon, I have a pre op appt on the 13th with my surgeon and on the 5th I need to go get my lab work, ekg and chest x-ray done.
June 9 - 10 days and counting... It is crunch time and I am getting really nervous. This is such a big thing, but the funny part is I am not afraid of the surgery, I am afraid of being skinny. I have always been heavy, I am not sure I will know what to do with myself when I lose the weight. I guess it is the fear of the unknow since I have never been thin. I am getting excited as well, I mean 10 more days and I will be on the losing side, it has been a long journey to get to this day. I am excited for the next journey to begin.
June 18th - less then 24 hours to surgery and I am getting excited and nervous. I cannot wait for this all to be done and be on the losing side. I am praying every moment that everything will be ok and I will be out of the hospital quickly and back home. I cannot believe the day is finally here and yet I have moments when I wish I had a little more time to think about it all. I will update again when I am out of the hospital.
6/25/06 - well I am done, surgery is over and I am home. I am not sure how to feel right now. I am feeling sad and happy. I am frustrated for two reasons. You know you should eat but your not hungry and the thought of food makes you sick. also becasue I miss eating. I guess this is the hard part, waiting for your body to heal so you can eat again, but knowing you will never eat the same again. I have had my doubts that I did the right thing. I sometimes wish i would have been strong enough to lose the weight without the surgery. I am sure that once I am feeling better and the weight starts to drop I will feel differently.
7/22/06 - I am doing much better now. I am past the sickness and not wanting to eat. I am taking it one day at a time and feel a bit like a baby with eating though. I am having some emotional issues right now though. I am starting to feel like a woman again and I want to take the time to do the little things for myself. I have been putting in more time in getting ready and stuff like that. There was a man at the office who I was sure was intrested in me and I found out he was dating some one. It was a bit of a blow to me, I am still feeling fat and like that is the reason he does not like me. I don't know I guess I am being extra sensitive right now. With my pending divorce plus this guy being involved with someone else. I am just feeling alone. Like there will never be someone out there for me.
9/25/2006 - WOW it has been a while since I checked in here. I am now down 80 lbs and currently on a plataue. Which really sucks, I have been stuck here for 2+weeks. I know it is just a matter of time before this works itself out, but it doesn't make it less frustrating. I am feeling great and I have started to the gym and am working out with a personal trainer. It is going great so far and I am really looking forward to start firming things up. I have offically file for divorce and wish the best of luck to my ex. He went through the surgery about a month ago and I hear he is doing great. I am just looking forward to starting my new life with my new body. I have a long way to go I know that but I feel better about myself then I have in years. I will honestly say I am afraid the weight loss with stop now and I will be stuck where I am at. I know that is not the case but when you go through these plateaus it is hard to realize it is just for a moment.
