kris7197
psy eval done!
Mar 06, 2008
3/6/08
I had my psy eval today and it was wonderful. she told me i am bulimic. "huh?! i thought bulimia is when you make yourself throw up"and she said, "no, your a binger." cause heres what i do. i never eat. i dont emotionally eat, i dont snack i dont eat at all- all day- until dinner. and then i go CRAZY. i eat as much as or more than my husband. and i Dont feel bad about it cause i went the whole day without eating, so i feel like i can eat as much as i want.
it was strange speaking to someone about eating. and food. and my weight. she kept telling me how beautiful i am, and i was thinking, is she saying this cause she thinks i need to hear it? cause i dont think im ugly. really. i dont think any overweight obese fat persons whatever they want to call us, are ugly. in fact i look in the mirror and i see a pretty girl, with moo moo clothes cause nothing else fits. my issues are health related. i dont need to be a size 12, as much as i need to chase after my babies. (8,4,20 months) i dont need to look good in an evening gown as much as i want to sit on a rollar coaster ride with my daughter. i dont have to have the very best outfits from whatever store i want, as much as i want to play -tag your it- with my baby boy.
so i asked her, "how many lap band patients do you see?"
"oh, about 36." she tells me.
"are they happy?"
"Every single one of them."
and thats all i needed to hear.
One step closer....
I had my psy eval today and it was wonderful. she told me i am bulimic. "huh?! i thought bulimia is when you make yourself throw up"and she said, "no, your a binger." cause heres what i do. i never eat. i dont emotionally eat, i dont snack i dont eat at all- all day- until dinner. and then i go CRAZY. i eat as much as or more than my husband. and i Dont feel bad about it cause i went the whole day without eating, so i feel like i can eat as much as i want.
it was strange speaking to someone about eating. and food. and my weight. she kept telling me how beautiful i am, and i was thinking, is she saying this cause she thinks i need to hear it? cause i dont think im ugly. really. i dont think any overweight obese fat persons whatever they want to call us, are ugly. in fact i look in the mirror and i see a pretty girl, with moo moo clothes cause nothing else fits. my issues are health related. i dont need to be a size 12, as much as i need to chase after my babies. (8,4,20 months) i dont need to look good in an evening gown as much as i want to sit on a rollar coaster ride with my daughter. i dont have to have the very best outfits from whatever store i want, as much as i want to play -tag your it- with my baby boy.
so i asked her, "how many lap band patients do you see?"
"oh, about 36." she tells me.
"are they happy?"
"Every single one of them."
and thats all i needed to hear.
One step closer....
