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Spoke to my mom today. I let her know my surgery date. she is still not happy about my choice. afraid  of the unknown.
I wonder still, if this is the right thing to do. maybe I should try to lose weight on my own. 
But After I showered today, I took a long look at my body, I need this. its the only way for me, I am a compulsive eater and I dont want to eat myself to death

I'm counting the days to Dec. 26. 
have been walking for  a month now. only 15 minutes a day at work, and 45 min. Sat. and Sun. its a start. 
My left knee bothers me, but I walk my way through it. with time I will increase my walks to 30 min. during my lunch break. 
with the grace of god, I will overcome!

Ok, it finally came, the phone call.  I hear my cell phone playing a little latin rythams, 1, 2 , 3, going on and on. I felt it in my bones, the call. I didnt want to answer it. I finally check my voice mail and sure enough, its the Doc's off . 
I felt my face getting hot, I feel nausa coming on. I am scarred to death.
Different things are going through my head. I cant eat no more, no more home town buffet, no more chinese food, no more mci-d's. what if I die.
I'm having second thoughts. I dont think I want the surgery after all.
Its 2:30, I'm feeling calm, I know I can do this. I need to stay positive. I heard somewhere, that patients with postive attitudes recovery faster.
I finally returned the call, feeling very relaxed my date is scheduled for Dec. 26, a day after x-mas. I feel good about my deciscion and am excited about my new life.

Today is Saturday, had a great thanksgiving with my family, I ate to much and paid the price with heartburn. kept me up all night. 
I am waiting to hear from the docs. office. 
Again I am having second thoughts, maybe I should try Atkins one more time or the that new OTC meds. that prevents you from absorbing fats. I continue to read everyone posts and that does keep my mind on the postives of lapband. 
On the postive note, I have started walking, not much about 20 min. evry onther day. my goal is to walk everyday for at least 45 min.
we will see want happens

not yet banded

I just completed the last requirment for surgery. 
met with:
Consult 11/1/07
Psych. evaluation 11/9/07 Dr. Morgan, very nice man, I now have proof for my family that I'm not Krazy.
Nutritional Eval. 11/9/07 with Carol Kraft, Boring
Pre-op call 11/14/07 Mr. Arun this class was very informative there were 4 other patients with me. 2 men and 2 women.

from here, I am told that my paperwork will be submitted to my insurance co. keeping my fingers cross.

My thoughts onlap-band are like a yo-yo, I'm excited then scared, then excited again. I hope these are normal feelings.