Venting/Rambling

Apr 17, 2012

I haven't been gettting much sleep and it's really getting to me. My attitude sucks and I feel very negative about everything. It doesn't help that my finace lost his job and we are in serious financial turmoil, but I keep telling myself so are alot of other people in the country and I should be thankful for our blessings.
Then I stepped on the scale this morning and it says  that I gained 2 lbs . Seriously?!?!?!?! My stress level is thru the roof, my stomach is in knots and I can barely even think of food and I GAINED 2 lbs!

I know that I need to get more calories in and I am trying - if only I could stop gagging and vomiting everything I try to eat. I find that my taste buds are extremely hormonal. What works todya doesn't work tomorrow. I can't even really bring dinner lefovers for lunch because they don't tast right the following day.

I am definitely "down in the dumps" as my 10 yr old son would say. I really don't want to be in a funk, but the more I try to pull myself out - the worse I feel. Mind you, I have never been the crying type and was taught that it is a sign of weakness but all I want to do is bawl my eyes out every other hour .

The only good thig so far today is that I was able to get my Protein shake down without pulling over to vomit and I am thankful for that.

Thanks for letting me vent
xoxo
Cecee

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