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It has been a while, since I wrote. Lot's of crappy things going on which means I have stopped taking care of myself and put on 5 pds. SO hard to stop the cycle of self loathing. Need to get myself together. I really needs to figure out a way to deal with life besides food. Damn i was doing so good.

I ate well but didn't get overstuffed. Now back to the gym and my trainer tomorrow.

Well I'm back on track. The weight is coming off again. I have to keep up my half of the bargain. Lot's of exercise and staying away from the bad food. I can do this!

I'm scared that I am messing up. My weight lose has stalled and I feel like I am always hungry.  How do I fight this?

Gotta stop weighing myself. Making myself crazy with all the different scales. One scale loss, one says the same. This is what happens to me when I try to lose weight. I become obsessed with weighing myself. Now, I will only weigh myself once a week at the same time. Sunday mornings. Time to take it seriously.

My excuse has been I can't do it. Too Fat too tired. So tired of myself. Now, no more excuses. I got off my a**, painted my Son's room. I will get this house together. We just moved into this house and I will not wait forever to get our house together. Tired of being the Fat Girl.

My Wife had her surgery today. Now will we do this together. I'm so glad she changed her mind about having surgery. I know she won't regret it. We will be able to grow old together.

Got my 1st fill. Not too bad. They gave me 5 cc's. Not too bad. I have been losing weight so I'm very happy with the progress. I'm back on liquids for 3 days. Then soft food so I should drop weight quickly. I'm so happy!

I did reach my goal of losing 20 pounds the 1st month.

It has been one month since my surgery. I have taken off 16 pounds. I was hoping for 20, but I will take it. I have to remember it's not a sprint  it's a marathon. I can know take my jeans off without unbuttoning them. YEAH!!! 

I go for my 1st fill on tuesday. It's time. I am starting to get hungry. I can't mess this up. I need to go all the way. :)