It's been awhile

Aug 17, 2013

Hi y'all,

Well, here I am 5 months into my 6 month waiting period.  It's been exciting and irritating all at once.  I have been learning about how my new eating habits need to happen.  I also realize that I can't start when the surgery happens.  I need to start now!!!!  Learning about new protein sources, working with a support group, realizing that I am an emotional eater as well as lazy-yes lazy!!!!!  I know, I know-I have heard it before that my weight is not my fault- that it is the fault of my parents (who were obese)-that it is genes.  That is true!  But you know what?  Genes are only a part of my weight problems.  I eat when I am in front of the tv.  I eat when I am bored.  I eat when I am happy.  I eat when I am sad.  I keep saying to myself  " I will not eat chips today"  and then-I give in.  I now have to work on my mind as well as my body.    I must learn to love myself and keep working on who I am.  I love and hate me all at the same time. 

Well, that's that.  Now-let me update.  I have had my psych. evaluation, my nutritional evaluation, 5 of my 6 physician assisted weight loss appointments.   In September is my last visit before they send in the information to my insurance.  I also have been trying to determine-when do I have the surgery.  Do I have it in October?  Maybe not as I have a nephew getting married and a great friend turning 80.  I can't miss those parties.  Do I wait until early November?  Do I wait till Thanksgiving week so I get 2 days holiday off?  So much to think about.  So much to get excited about.  I am not going to spoil the fun.  The anticipation of this tool starting to work for and with me is wonderful to me.   

What is the one thing I am looking forward to?  (you may think this is crazy)  I am looking forward to the hospital stay.  Sound's weird doesn't it?  But if you lived with 1 husband, 1 cat and 1 crazy dog (and crazy dog and cat always jump on my side of bed every night and takes up all kinds of room) you would want a bed all to yourself also :-)

I guess that's it for tonight.  I hope to keep up with my blog.

Good night all!!

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