Bonny D.

Send Message

Block

Add Friend

Feeling so much better these days.  I went back to work to find a gorgeous bouquet of flowers and a nice card on my desk.  It's nice to be back.  I don't make a good stay home Mom.  I had a couple of bouts with heartburn which me an anxious wreck (part of the neurosis of being me).  I called the doctor and they told me not to worry unless there is nausea or vomitting involved.  Thank goodness I did not have that issue!  I am on semi soft portion of my diet (one step before advanced).  Lovin it!  So tired of mushy liquidy foods. 

Everything is humming along...  People are really starting to notice my weight loss which thrills me.  I count from the time my journey began for approval until now and it makes me proud when I can say I have almost lost 70 lbs.  I have a few obstacles but I am sure I can conquer them too.  I am going to try and work hard to lose 100 lbs by my birthday in August but time will only tell.  I need to get regular exercise and I am finding it hard to work it in (any ideas?).  I have to psych myself into it I guess.

Anyways... one day at a time! Yay, me!

I cried all last night and into the morning but today I am much better.  I went to see my daughter dance at MaCaw Hall for discover dance.  She did a wonderful job.  My parents came too.   It was nice to see them and it was good to be out and about.  I found out my Dad had the same response to Oxycontin that I did.  It was nice to hear I wasn't the only one.  We went to buffet after which cracked me up because I really didn't eat much and I was stuffed.  I haven't even had my first fill.  It is good to feel in control for once surrounded by food.   I am proud to know I have come so far since this whole journey began.   5 years ago I had completely giving up hope of being anything but morbidly obese.   

No matter the challenge I am not giving up!!!!

21 days after surgery and I am finding myself paranoid that the band has already slipped.  I have followed all the doctors instructions.   I am probably over reacting.  They gave me Oxycontin for pain relief which really messed with my bipolar disorder.  I am anxious and depressed.  It wasn't something I planned on.  I have been down in the dumps for the past two days teary eyed and having a hard time making it out of bed.  I start back at work on Monday and I really can't afford to miss anymore work.  I need to get out of this funk just don't know how. 

I wonder if anybody else has felt so depressed after their surgery?  It would be nice to hear from someone who has and how they worked through it. 

You are the architect of your personal experience. 

-Shirley MacLaine-

33 days until surgery.  This week has been rough.  I spent a night in the emergency room. I found out I might have endometriosis one more thing to add to a list of things wrong with me.  I also still have high cholestrol even after losing the 43 lbs.  My doc required I lose a min of 30 lbs before he would approve realize band surgery. To top everything off I got the nasty cold everyone has been sharing in my office.   I have decided to remain positive for next week.  It is going to better than this week.

35 days until surgery.   I have a flurry of emotions.  I want to be successful and healthy.  I am going to keep my eye on my goals.  I have scheduled more therapy in anticapation.  I have to get all those things that make me anxious out. 

Makes me wonder how I will have to deal with stress after the surgery?

Getting things ready.  A friend of mine brought me a vile of New Whey 42 grams of protein slight weird tecture and taste.  I have a feeling if I dilute it in water it might not be too bad.  

Still nervous but health is my goal.  I am going to do it.

The closer I get to surgery the more nervous I get.  I keep wondering if I can do everything I need to and also what would happen if something goes wrong.