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Went in for my first appointment and fill in 4-5 months.  He gave me .5 cc's. I was embarrassed to go in and he was not happy with me not losing in 4 months.  I have stayed the same since May. I was honest with him though and told him I was eating ice cream, smoothies with whipped cream and sugar galore this summer.  Also, I have indulged in many foods that are bad for me.  I have been eating microwave popcorn like crazy but putting melted butter on it, real butter.  Yummy but very bad. And, I have been getting Frosty's from Wendy's too.  Basically I was sticking to drinking a lot of my meals for fear of getting food stuck and throwing up.  That pretty much sums up my summer in a nut shell.  So, that brings me to today with the fill and hopefully it is not over filled and I don't have a horrid experience like I had this past May.  We'll see.  I know I can lose more weight as I have been pretty successful thus far when being a good girl!  As I was leaving the doctor's office, he told me to behave!  Funny but oh so true!!

Well, here we are at September 11th already, time flies when you are having fun....I guess.  Not much has really changed in my life lately. I am not really eating all that great although I am trying to be good.  I have not had as many smoothies lately although I did find a good one at Starbucks that has 25 grams of protein in it.  It is chocolate banana and very good.  I am still holding steady as far as the weight loss goes. But, I know that is because I am not really trying to lose.  My own fault, I know. So, not sure what that brings me to but I guess I will find out as soon as I go to the doctor next week.

Hi everyone. I am not sure I should blog today as I have been being a BAD, BAD, BAD bandster as of late.  I am not really doing what I need to be doing and eating whatever I think i will not get stuck on.  That means ice cream, smoothies and stuff like that.  That is not good.  I have not been to the doctor in a while so I scheduled an appointment for September 16th.  We'll see what happens!!  He probably will not be happy with me at all!  I am kind of thinking I should start following the weight watchers points.....that worked for me in the past.  Not sure what to do.

Wow how time flies when you are having fun!  It's so hard to believe how quickly this time has gone.....it's amazing.  I'd say that things have actually been pretty normal for me latley...no major throwing up or problems to speak of.  I think I am more conscious of my chewing and my food choices. I just don't even attempt certain foods anymore.  Unfortunately, pizza is off my list for good now.  Major bummer.  But, better for me in the long run, I think!  LOL.  I looked at some before and now pictures the other day and wow, I can't imagine that I was that fat!  I still feel pretty big right now so I can't possibly imagine my thinking way back at this time last year.  I guess at some point we are all in denial.

My band and I have been getting along well these past couple of weeks so let's just hope it stays that way!  Three weeks until another appointment so I will have to just keep plugging along.

Hope summer is going well for everyone!  

Hugs,
Lisa

Since my last update to my blog.  Things were kind of weird for awhile.  I ended up making an appointment for an unfill and then went and he didn't take anything out.  He said that he does not want to go back and forth removing tiny amounts of fluid.  He did write me a new prescription for Nexium in case I was having problems with digestion, etc.  It seems to have helped some.  I am scheduled for a fill on June 24th which I know I will not need.  I still am having issues with certain foods and I think I am eating too fast and not chewing well enough.  It would be cool to know exactly how big the opening is and if the chewing is the problem.  It's been frustrating for me lately since I can't seem to have normal drama free meal.  And, I am drinking my calories which is not good.  I also have not really lost anything either.  Can't quite figure that out but I must be drinking way too many calories and way too much sugar.  UGH!

I think I am still too tight.  I am so frustrated and confused lately.  I made an appointment to get a slight unfill and then had two really good days and decided to cancel it.  Big mistake.  After not going to the doctor, I had a horrible experience with my dinner last night and threw up about 5 times.  I guess I will call and re-schedule another unfill.  

This thing has me so frustrated and mad over the past two weeks.  Sometimes I wish I could rip it right out!

So, here I am and it's been almost 2 weeks since I got the un-fill after the horrible experience of being too tight.  I still am not eating well though. I am not really having much luck without getting things stuck.  I was trying various types of foods and without much luck.  So, I called the doctor and am going in for another appointment on Thursday.  I can't understand all of this.  The nurse said I might just need a slight un-fill.  I don't want them to take out too much and resort to eating whatever I want again.  

So, here we go again.  I only have .5 left of what he gave me when I was too tight so how much more could he take out?  The nurse said he may take out a quarter of a cc.  Will that make a difference?  Who the heck knows.  I am frustrated and want to be the person who never had a weight problem to start with.  UGH.  Sometimes I love my band and sometimes I hate it.  I've come to the conclusion that food is evil.  LOL.

Well, what a week this was!  I ended up scheduling a fill for April 29th, two weeks after not getting one at my scheduled appt.  What a BIG MISTAKE.  For some reason, the doctor gave me 1.5 cc's on top of the 5 cc's I already had.  It was kind of weird, he did the fill and I could immediately feel the band tighten up.  I thought this was a feeling that I probably felt before when getting a fill but never paid any attention.  I then drank the water they gave me and it felt really tight going down.  I mentioned it to the nurse and she said to give it a day or so since the stoma tends to swell after a fill.  Fine.  I went back to work and tried to drink....still kind of hard.  Tried to drink all afternoon and it was not working all that well.  As the evening went on, felt horrible, started throwing up, having pb's and hiccups on top of burping constantly.  I felt a huge lump in my chest and could only assume I was too tight.  I threw up and made myself throw up over the next 6 hours just to try to get some relief.  I couldn't sleep, could not even lay down without needing to spit out excess saliva and foam.  It was horrible.  So, at 2:00 am I called the doctor, he didn't call me back for 2 hours ( a whole other horrible story) and by then I had had it, I had thrown up, etc. for too long and was ready to head to the ER.  He told me not to drink anything else and to come to his office at 9:30 am and they would page him since he does surgery on Wednesday mornings.  Fine.  Those next 5 hours were the longest of my life and I went in and he came in within 20 minutes of me being there and did the unfill.  He took out 1 cc of the 1.5.  Instant relief!!  It was amazing.  So, live and learn I suppose and make sure I am more forceful when I tell the nurse that the water was not going down very well.  All in all a horrible experience and one I hope to never repeat....ever.  So, I have been slowly moving to soft foods today (48 hours later) and it has been okay.  I feel very paranoid to eat and am very tired from my 24 hour barf-fest.  My throat hurts from throwing up and I think me and my toilet are on a first  name basis now.....LOL.

The only good news out of this was that I am down about 5 pounds in 3 days.  Good but bad too.  This is not the way to do it, that's for sure.

This month is my 6 month bandiversary so I am looking forward to moving on and losing some more weight the right way.  

Hope all is well with everyone and PM me if you want to chat!!

Not quite sure how I feel about this.  I went to the doc on 4/15 and he didn't give me a fill.  I don't really know what the deal was.  I had lost 7 pounds in between appointments and he said that was good and he was happy.  I have still had food get stuck and all but I also feel hungry too.  So, what's going on?? I don't have a clue.  I don't know if I should schedule a fill or not. I also noticed this morning that I am up a pound or two.  Is this normal?  I was losing pretty consistently so I am getting worried now.

Time really has gone by quickly, hasn't it?  Seems like yesterday I was complaining about waiting for the surgery day to get here and now here we are.

I am up to 5 cc's in a 10 cc band.  My next fill is scheduled for Tuesday the 15th.  I've definitely had restriction but noticed I've been making some not so good choices the past few days.  I have resorted to drinking a milk shake  or getting a ice cream cone just because it is easier to eat than other things.  That is not good.  So, I will change this horrible behavior, NOW!

Nothing really all that new to report other than my new found interest in clothes and the fact that pants I have not worn in years are now fitting me again.  If I judge the sizes overall, I've come down 2 sizes and that is a thrill for me.  I didn't really think life would get like this so quickly, but I am glad that it did.

Our next door neighbor gave me a great compliment last night.  She hadn't seen me practically all winter and when she did, I was bundled up for the arctic with the bulky winter coat (I live in Pittsburgh), etc.  So, she finally saw me the past few days and it's been fairly warm here so I didn't have a coat on.  She said I looked terrific.  It's strange being noticed again and complimented, but WONDERFUL.  I kind of tear up as I type this thinking about how hard being overweight has been and how hard I can only imagine it to be for my son who is overweight.  He finally goes to the endocrinologist May 1st so I hope to get some answers to help him begin to slim down and be healthy too.

Hope all is well with everyone and do glad that Spring has Sprung and that tax season is just about over.....I work at a financial planning company and it is a horrible time of year for us.  :  )

Till I blog again.........take care of you!
xo