littlegirlrunswithscissors
MIA but trying to claw my way out of this hole i've fallen into
Feb 25, 2009
After 2 years of fighting (jan 2007- jan 2009) and appeals, Medi-CAL has denied my claim for insurance. I am still disabled and having a hell of a time finding ANYONE who can help get this turned around.
In the meantime I will be paying out of pocket to see Dr Keshishian (tomorrow) Thursday feb 26th for a consult and to talk about SELF-PAY DS surgery.
I figure at the very least if I shell out 30k to have the surgery and in 1.5 years i'm slim enough with a low-enough BMI to qualify for individual/private health insurance, my 2007 spine surgery will be far enough behind me to not count against me as my "most recent" hospitalization will have been the DS nearly 2 years prior (prior to when i will try applying for private insurance again).
SO $280 out of pocket tomorrow for the appointment and a meeting with dr K.
I am so tired of being this size. I went to Planned Parenthood (no insurance) to get birth control because the liver issues that prevented me from taking the pill in the past, have nearly resolved. When I got on the scale, fully clothed, stack of keys in my pocket, shoes on at 4pm I weighed 277. The following morning post-shower I weighed myself at home and it read 275.
275
I don't know how I even got to 275. I don't know when along the last 6 years i managed to gain 25 pounds. In february of 2002 i weighed 340 (I am 5'2"ish - was 5'3" before the back surgery) and I joined "Resort To Fitness" in Portland, Oregon. An all women's gym with spectacular trainers. I worked out with DeeAnn and had a membership there for a full year. I went to the gym SIX days a week for no less than 2 hours a day. a full hour of cardio combined with stretching at least 35-45 minutes walking on an incline on the treadmill. I modified my already pescaterian diet down to vegan and worked my ass (literally) off.
12 months in the gym plus 2 months on my own following the end of my membership and I had lost 90 pounds.
Life at 250 was lovely. I wore a 2x top (loosely) and size 22 jeans (relaxed fit/not super tight).
Today at 275 I wear a LaneBryant size 7 (26 red-triangle) jean (which is about 2" too big in the waist and thighs but fits my fat ass nicely) and I prefer 4x tops because they're so baggy. I can still wear a 2x top but my tummy sticks out. I hate fitted clothes. I hate that baggy clothes make me look bigger but mostly i hate things that cling to my fatness.
I am really anxious to go see dr K tomorrow. I'm so glad he has a glendale facility now.
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In the meantime I will be paying out of pocket to see Dr Keshishian (tomorrow) Thursday feb 26th for a consult and to talk about SELF-PAY DS surgery.
I figure at the very least if I shell out 30k to have the surgery and in 1.5 years i'm slim enough with a low-enough BMI to qualify for individual/private health insurance, my 2007 spine surgery will be far enough behind me to not count against me as my "most recent" hospitalization will have been the DS nearly 2 years prior (prior to when i will try applying for private insurance again).
SO $280 out of pocket tomorrow for the appointment and a meeting with dr K.
I am so tired of being this size. I went to Planned Parenthood (no insurance) to get birth control because the liver issues that prevented me from taking the pill in the past, have nearly resolved. When I got on the scale, fully clothed, stack of keys in my pocket, shoes on at 4pm I weighed 277. The following morning post-shower I weighed myself at home and it read 275.
275
I don't know how I even got to 275. I don't know when along the last 6 years i managed to gain 25 pounds. In february of 2002 i weighed 340 (I am 5'2"ish - was 5'3" before the back surgery) and I joined "Resort To Fitness" in Portland, Oregon. An all women's gym with spectacular trainers. I worked out with DeeAnn and had a membership there for a full year. I went to the gym SIX days a week for no less than 2 hours a day. a full hour of cardio combined with stretching at least 35-45 minutes walking on an incline on the treadmill. I modified my already pescaterian diet down to vegan and worked my ass (literally) off.
12 months in the gym plus 2 months on my own following the end of my membership and I had lost 90 pounds.
Life at 250 was lovely. I wore a 2x top (loosely) and size 22 jeans (relaxed fit/not super tight).
Today at 275 I wear a LaneBryant size 7 (26 red-triangle) jean (which is about 2" too big in the waist and thighs but fits my fat ass nicely) and I prefer 4x tops because they're so baggy. I can still wear a 2x top but my tummy sticks out. I hate fitted clothes. I hate that baggy clothes make me look bigger but mostly i hate things that cling to my fatness.
I am really anxious to go see dr K tomorrow. I'm so glad he has a glendale facility now.
