ELIZABETH ROMAN
Sep/15/2002
desperately need the Gastric By-pass surgery!!! I'm so depressed all the time... I feel worthless. I need a big change in my life and I know that the surgery is my big change... is my only hope...
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Oct/12/2002
Finally I'm going to meet my surgeon!!!! I will have the first one-on-one visit with Dr. Hutcher on Oct/24/02... I'm looking forward to this meeting... I wish I could have this surgery tomorrow... (that's how desperate I am)... I'm going to all of the support meetings that Dr. Hutcher do... I've been already to 3 of them (one each month) I love going there because it makes me feel like I'm not the only one suffering from been fat and humiliated against. I have all my paperwork ready!! I'm just waiting for the 24th of Oct... that will be just the first step towards my expected and new life!!! I'll keep you updated...
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Oct/14/2002
I'm feeling so bad today... I'm so depressed...
I'm going through a very hard time in my life right now... I just decided yesterday to get a divorce and go through all this alone... I don't have any family here... I don't have nobody but my 2 princesses AMY (8) and EMELY (2)...
I feel so lonely... but I guess that's just the way is suppossed to be...(I don't feel lonely because of him or the divorce... I've been alone for a long time even though I'm married)
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OCT/25/2002
Yesterday was my 1- on - 1 visit with my surgeon!!!!!
Finaly I met him. It was nice to know the person that will change my life in such a big way...
Everything went fine... they took all my paper work and Dr. Hutcher told me that my surgery (depending on the time that the insurance take to aprove) will take place in 10 weeks or less!!!!! I can't believe it!!!
I didn't have a list of question for Dr. Hutcher... and when he was ready to answer my "questions", I told him that I just had 2 questions... How long should I stay without working after the surgery? and When was going to be???? I just need to be on the other side!!!
My plans about the divorce still going on... tomorrow I will put the application down for my new apartment for me and my daughters.... the YWCA is helping me and my daughters a lot with support meetings and counseling specialy for my kids... let's see how everything is going to be... I know I can do it by myself and my kids need it too... I'LL BE JUST FINE!!!! I'll update later...
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Nov/11/2002
It's been a while since I updated last time.... is because there is no big changes with the progress of my surgery... they are some big changes in my life though... I already have my own apartment (and I love it!!) it's small but cute!!
I feel happy because in couple of days I'll be living alone with my two princesses and spending some quality time in a peacefull environment... other than that just waiting for the insurance to approve... it seems like is taking forever :(
but I will not giving up... my life is going in the right direction finally!!!
So will keep waiting because I know my time will come...
Thanks for all the support!!!
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NOV/15/2002
I feel so bad and so depressed.... I started researching about this surgery since long time ago and been talking about it to anybody that listen... happened to be that I spoke about it to the husband of a friend of mine and he became very interested just about 2 months ago and started going to the support meetings with me... since then we did everything at the same time... we went to the 1 - on - 1 meeting on the same date.. we have the same insurance company... the dr's office infomed me that they sent the paperwork for approval for both of us on the same day... he just had his approval on the mail YESTERDAY!!!
Don't get me wrong... I'm very happy for him and we even celebrated last night... But my paperwork has not been approve yet... nobody seems to know what is going on, not even the Dr's office... I feel so bad!!! he has the surgery scheduled for January the 31st.... Thanks to everybody that is been giving me support in this so difficult time of my life, especialy my new "Support Friend Myra Gonzalez" which is having her surgery on March 10th, 2003!!! Very happy for her too...
well... I guess I'll update later when I feel a little bit better or when I have something to update... 'till next time...
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NOV/18/2002
*A*P*P*R*O*V*E*D* !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just received a call from the dr's office telling me that my surgery was approved by the insurance company and telling me that my surgery date is for January 31st, 2003!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so happy that I can jump!!!!
At the same time I'm so scared... I can not even describe how scared I am... but I guess I have to risk it all...
'till later!!!
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NOV/24/2002
I received a bunch of scheduled appointments from the Dr's office!!! here is the list:
Nov/27/2002 @ 5:00pm.....Behavior Modification Class
Dec/10/2002 @ 8:30pm.....Sleep Study (with CPAP)
Dec/19/2002 @ 5:00pm.....Dietary Class
Jan/06/2003 @ 5:00pm.....Informational class (w/nurse)
Jan/07/2003 @11:00am.....Psychiatric Evaluation
Jan/17/2003 @10:30am.....Physical (w/nurse)
Jan/17/2003 @11:00am.....Pre-registration and labwork
Jan/31/2003 @10:30am.....****** SURGERY *********
I'll be updating as soon as I start going to them... 'till then... God bless you all and thanks for your support!!
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DEC/11/2002
It's been awile since I've updated...Sorry...
Last night was my last sleep study... this is the second time that I meet with the respiratory therapist at the Sleep Study Center (Robert) he is a trip!!!!
We laughed so much !!! he has such a great sence of humor!!!
The night was ok... He made it enjoyable...!!!
Anyways... other than that... nothing new yet... still waiting for the big day... I'm so ready to start my new life!!!!!!
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DEC/21/2002
Ok, 4 more appointments and then "THE BIG DAY"!!!
I already went to the behavior modification class, sleep study and dietary class... time is flying!!! I'm so nervous and at the same time so excited!!! I can not believe that I have such a strong feelings both at the same time... but that's just the way I feel.
It feels so good to live by myself now!!! What a difference after so many years of been depressed and feeling miserable...
I'm getting a brand new life all together... I'm happy!!!
I know I'll be a lot more happier in about 5 weeks... when I see one of my biggest dream come true and start doing all the things that one day (long time ago) I used to do!!! can you belive that about 14 years ago I was a size "5"!???
I'm not expecting to be that size again... but I'll be very happy if I get back to size 12!!!!
Well I'll update later as the date get near...
And thanks everybody for all your support!!!!
GOD BLESS YOU ALL!!!
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DEC/31/2002
Is the last day of this year and I will start the new year with a lot of new things in my life!!!
New enviroment, new look, NEW FRIENDS!!!!
I can say that I'm starting to feel happy again in a lots of ways!! I made a phone call last night that made me feel very good about life!!! it feels so good when you see that somebody might like to talk to you just because the way you are...
I wish all of you a very happy new year and thanks a lot for all your emails wishing me good luck and supporting me.
THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!
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JAN/09/2003
HI EVERYBODY!!!!!
This surgery is driving me mad!!!!
I'm so nervous that I'm getting physically sick... I already went to my informational meeting and the psychiatric evaluation... everything went well... it looks like this surgery is a reality... I just want to get over it!!!
I feel happy.. very happy I should say... good things are happening in my life...it could be that I'm seen things that don't exist, but still it feels good...
'till later and God bless you all.
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JAN/20/2003
Here I am again!!!!!!
Well, is getting closer and closer....(scaryyyy)!!!!!!
just 11 days and I'll be on the other side (hopefully)
I went to all the appointmets already... on the 17 of Jan was the last one, (physical and labwork (pre-registration)... I'm nervous, I can not say something different but at the same time life is getting better and better every day (...)
I just pray to God to let me wake up from surgery, that's all... after that everything will be extra...
Good luck to everybody and PRAY FOR ME PLEASE!!!!!
ohhhh.... VERY IMPORTANT......
My surgery time was changed !!! now it will be at 7:30am instead of at 10:30.... (is that good or bad??) we'll see...
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JAN/22/2003
A VERY GOOD DAY FOR ME!!!!!
Nice surprise.... and little butterflies
in my stomach!!!
I'm happy...
THE BIG DAY IS GETTING CLOSER AND CLOSER!!!!!!
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MAR/22/2003
Sorry that I didn't update before but it's been a very hard time for me... up to this point I wouldn't recommend this surgery to ANYBODY!!!!!!! this has been the worst desition of my life!!! they don't tell half of what we will go through after surgery... at the time of the surgery my liver was rupture and I was in a coma for three days... they did another surgery two days later after the gastric bypass surgery to fix my liver.... I lost all my blood and almost die!!! since the day of my surgery on Jan/31/03 I have lost almost 50 pounds and still.... this surgery is not worth it!!!! I was such a happy person before this... now I'm sad all the time because I don't feel good, I don't have any energy what so ever, I feel weak... everything that I used to do by myself before, I can no longer do it... I need help almost for everything... there is no way in this world that can prepare anybody for this surgery... I was treated like a cattle in the hospital too... I will never have the right words to describe how I really feel and how this surgery has affected my life and that of my family... the only thing I could say is... "IS NOT WORTH IT"!!!!!!!
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Oct/29/2003
It's been a long time since I updated my page... a lot's been going on in my life. Thanks to God, more good stuff is been happening than bad!!!
I'm very happy with my weight loss but still I feel and I see my self in the mirror as an overweight person. Would I do it again? NO... Am I happy with the outcome now? YES. I feel like a totally new person... I'm not depressed any more, I'm loving life... and I got rid of all the negative things in my life and started some new and positive ones. (positive at least for me!!)
I feel good about myself. I have somebody very special to me in my life now and I'm loving everything that we're living together!! What a difference a 100# can make!!!!
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JAN/31/2004
Hi again to everybody.... every day I thank God for keeping me alive and healthy!!! I feel great and I need to say that I can see the results of this surgery now even thou it's been a very rugh time for me after the surgery. My weight now is 168#, I have lost 119# in one year. I still feel that I need to loose another 35#... but to this moment I feel good about myself and my body. I need to have a tommy tuck and I have a hernia. I'm planing on having it done this year, that's going to be some 20# right there so maybe I will need to lose just about 10#. I wish all the good luck in the world to everybody that is going throu the surgery or thinking about it. Best wishes to everybody and God bless you all!!!
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OCT/27/2005
Hi all !!! is incredible how some of us just forget about this web site after we become all pretty and sexy !!!
I'm sorry that I haven't update in such a long time... I'm doing great... I guess I reached the weight were I'm going to be in... 150 lbs !!!! can you believe it??? half the weight that I use to be!!! The only thing going wrong with me right now is that I'm having some irregular heart palpitation for some reason... I don't know if is related to the wight that I lost or what... but other than that I feel great!!! I'm loving life and enjoying every bit of it!!! enjoying my kids... dating!!!! life is good... and God is good too!!!
Until next time...
