lmnc
March 3, 3009
Mar 03, 2009
I am going to ramble today. I am scared out of my wits about surgery this Friday. I am so scared of dying and leaving my kids to fend for themselves in this crazy world. There is absolutely knowone i trust to raise my kids. I would feel so much more confident if I knew that their father could take care of them, but heck he is still working on getting his own act together. My brothers, well, thats a whole nother story in itself. Grandparents, pleaseeeee. The only one I could trust would be the kids godmother, but she has her own family to take care of.I have my surgery Friday, and come Monday, I will be taking care of myself. I have knowone to stay here and help me. I do have friends to call on thankfully. I have always trudged through things on my own. It sucks, up until this surgery, I have never ever thought about how much I do on my own. But I find myself so upset that I am always going through major events on my own. But I will persevere, in the end I am a better person.
