LnS4ever
I have been fighting with my weight since I can remember. I have tried to lose it so many times through so many ways. It is so hard I did diets after diets. I would lose 15 pounds or a little more then hit a brick wall. After I had Shyann in 1994 I weighed 308 or around there. I use the deppo shot for birth control. I used it twice and over that year I gained over 100 pounds. I told myself after that I am not going to go over that. As the years went by. I dieted and dieted and would lose a little here and there. But gained some too.. At first I didnt see it then it hit me and hit me hard thats I am FAT and very FAT at that. I seen myself in photos year after year. Things were tough to look at. But I was ok with it for a while then the low self esteem got a hold of me. Than there was depression that set in after losing four babies. After losing John Paul the depression and the self esteem got very bad. There goes the eating for comfort. And the shell and brick wall started being built. I felt like my whole world was crashing around me. There I sat for several years. I added the weight on like crazy. We moved to Washington then I found out I had degenerative disc disease. Which it was and still is hard for me to exercise. Just standing there in line at the store made my lower back and hips hurt like crazy. I went to Doctor after Doctor. They all said the same thing. There is nothing that can be done to fix it. So with little to no exercise I began gaining more weight. I tried water exercises and all that came out of that was hurting more. As my body relax from being in the pool so there came more pain. Fast forward to 2014 at Christmas of course there were pictures. Then I seen what I looked like and it made me sick. I am HUGE!! I cant understand why any one would want to be around me or for that fact with me.. I now weight 450 or so and it makes me sick. So I made a vow to my self that 2015 was the year I am going to take some of this weight off. So in March I went to a new Doctor and we were running down the list of things and of course weight came up. She told me that my weight was getting to be very bad to me and dangerous. So we talked about weight loss surgery. Which I was looking up and researching things anyways. So the gastric sleeve came up and I was referred over to Bailey Medical Center in Owasso. I started the ball rolling. On the 6th of April I go to a seminar about the surgery. Than in May I see the Doctor who is going to see me.
As of today 7/11/15 I have got all my appointments done and got a couple of green lights. So I am on my way.. I have also lost 16 pound. I know its not much but it is a start..
