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i went back to work today 1/2 day though. im gonna take a half day tomorrow too. i just really feel like i'm getting over bronchitis. extremely winded when i do the slightest activity. i had to r/s my post op appointment w/ the surgeon because it wasnt convienient. i would just like to say that....im not too fond of my surgeon, his partners, or his office staff. i read peoples blogs and they state how much they love there doctor. I DON'T. i guess i really should have looked into that rather than jump into the surgery because i wanted it so bad.  today i feel better.  i can't wait till i'm 100% again. i wanna enjoy the things i used to do, like ~ bending all the way over the tie my shoes, and picking up my yorkie, make a smooth right turn when i'm driving w/o ripping my elbow into my port site, walk upright.....damn, you really underestimate those things until you can't do them anymore!! do date i have lost 8 pds post op..... but when i think about it~ anyone who has been eating the same kinds of food i have (basically liquid), would have lost that weight too??

its getting better with each passing day. not that i am recovered but it is getting easier. the breathing doesn't hurt as much however the bubble in my chest is still there. i went to the park yesterday to walk around and get out of the house and i felt as though that i am getting over bronchitis. i got winded really easily which scared me. the pain from the surgery i can deal with because i understand it...the breathing part, not so much. this is something that i will have to discuss w/ the dr. at the post op visit. the site where the port is still burns when i move the wrong way but i've learned my lessen....BEND IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION!. the eating part....i'm not really hungry (well sometimes, when i don't eat), it's still the emotional aspect of it still. being on the liquid diet and then staring at the t.v. that has Pizza Hut, Quiznos, Olive Garden commercials, watching my bf scarf down some pasta. i want food. but then i get over it and think that soon enough i will be able to eat whatever, just in moderation. i have to say though....i hate chiken broth soup!!
TO DATE: 8 PDS PRE-OP, 6 PDS POST OP!!!!

just to let everyone know....i feel like S**T, i guess i don't have a big tolerence for pain. the incision site where the port is, is almost unbearable. i can't bend over, lie on EITHER side when in bed, it takes me 5 minutes to get up out of the chair (i need help from my boyfriend to get out of bed) and then 10 minutes to walk to the bathroom.  i feel the need to pee every hour. all i want right now is for everything to stop hurting. even sleeping doesn't help, i can only lie on my back to sleep and a 1/2 hour into it my back is exhausted and my butt has shooting pains....(on both sides)!! just trying to sit up straight to type this is awful.  my breathing is so not normal. i can't take a big breath because it hurts (front side and back) and the gas that they fill your stomach up with in the OR is coming out slowing, very slowly, so i have these burps that come up but won't come out so they linger and hurt. and bearing down to make it come out the other way is a no-no at this point.  i must sound like a complete complainer but THIS SUCKS! i hope my fellow losers will have a better experience with this than i am.

i met with the doctor yesterday and he was pretty much to the point. no smiling or joking around.....as long as he preforms the surgery correct, that's all that i am worried about. i haven't lost as much preop weight, that i should have. (he wasn't impressed w/that either) there was one girl in the office though who actually gained weight instead and they CANCELLED HER SURGERY!! I felt awful for her. right now all i want is peanut butter on a rice cake!  my surgery is at 7:30 in the am, i have to be at the hospital at 5:45. i doubt i will be getting any sleep tomorrow night.  amazingly though, i am not nervous. I was never nervous about this procedure. maybe tomorrow it will hit me but, all im thinking about is the WEEK OFF I TOOK FROM WORK....WHOOOOOHOOOOO!. if i don't write tomorrow it's because i am looking for new bathing suits for my new self. keep ya'll posted.  
AND THANKS FOR EVERYONE WHO'S SHOWN SUPPORT!

i  am suppossed to be losing 15-20 pds on a medifast liquid diet before i go into surgery in one week....how is that going? not that good, so far i have lost five, gained one back. of course this wouldn't be happening if i could actually just drink the liquids. yesterday i was really bad and i had fast food (3) times. no wonder i gained 1 pound!! i am def. going to try harder this week, esp. since this is that last week before the lap band and they need me to lose the weight so that the liver won't be so fatty.  IM TRYING!