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It's been awhile since I've updated but I'm blogging on my fatsecret.com account as much as I can... I forgot all about my friends here! :(

I started Atkins on 2/26/2010 and had to restart again 3/14/2010 (partied too hard on my birthday).  I have since lost 32 lbs... 

I still have 140 lbs to go before I'm in my healthy range.  I'm wearing clothes that I thought I would never fit into again!  I get excited thinking that maybe soon I might see the 250's!

Anyhow all is good and I hope everything is good for you! 

Dammit, I typed up a long blog and it erased.

I'm so through.

Just wanted to post something to the effect of... had a good week.  Feeling good.  Hope you all are feeling great as well.

Blah.

I'm so mad I can't even type anymore.

Today, to celebrate the merging of departments... they bought us pizza today.  Normally that would lead to me going crazy but today, I only had two slices.  One mushroom and one sausage.  Delicious.

I took my time and ended up being too full.  Now how did that happen!  HOW!  LOL I'm going to start doing this with everything.  When I say I "took my time" I ripped the pizza up... sounds disgusting but it worked.  I made little bite size pieces and ate while I waited for a call to come through. 

Then voila... here I am full and amazed LOL.

Let's see how far I can take this.  They also brought dessert for a coworkers birthday.  I'm going to try to resist it completely (the dern setup is right behind my cubicle!)

Wish me luck! 

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Umm.  Ate a two by two inch square brownie and a scoop of strawberry ice cream.  Had to confess.  Umm.  A snickerdoodle cookie too. 

Good morning!

I'm feeling pretty good today even though I got into a heated argument last night with the man in my life.  You know how it feels to be sick and tired or being sick and tired... I'm right under that line.

I put my jeans on today and they are loose somehow.  I'm going to do the test (wash and dry them extra crispy LOL) and see if they are still loose.  If so, I will be doing the banana dance through the house.

It's a dress down day here at work and I look crazy once again.  I need a sweatsuit asap!

I'm thinking about moving into my own apartment, away from the man.  Yesterday I tried to talk to him about my thoughts about wanting WLS and it's like everything turned to being about him.  It's like he was trying to start an argument with me because I didn't want to tell him where I'm at with my weight.  He says "You aren't 300 are you?" and I looked at him like what if I am?  What does it matter?  Ugh! 

I got my package in the mail from the Medical University of South Carolina and haven't finished reading everything yet.  It sounds like I need to go see my physician asap to start documenting everything.  I looked at the request for gym membership info... umm.  I have plenty of those but does it matter if the receipts show that I owe every single one still?!  LOL  I'm a mess!

I'm going to google Idiot Proof when I get home later. 

I have my testing with VZW tomorrow morning and then I have to take Chaz to the vet.  I think he has ear mites 

Well I'm on lunch break and thought I'd shoot a quick blog.

I ordered a Monster Omelet today which I was only able to eat a little over half.  I had them put vegetables on the inside but I was still wrong for eating that monster!  LOL.  It had hash browns in it... yeah hash browns!

I'm feeling mighty full today, got in a couple glasses of water.  I noticed that my jean jacket fits me like a regular size pillow case going over a jumbo sized pillow. 

Well... I'll have to work on that.  I don't like looking crazy in my clothes! 

Well it's time to get back to work... boo!

I failed miserably with WW.  I don't even want to go into what happened but in a nutshell- I gave up.  I can't deal with counting points all day.  I'm thinking of trying again with the core plan but that doesn't interest me either.

I usually drop weight in the winter but it's standing pretty still this year.  I guess as it gets colder, I sleep more?  I don't know...

I was bummed out yesterday and probably overate because of frustration.

I weighed in at home before I drove up to the center to weigh in.  At home, I lost 4 lbs.  At the center, they told me I lost 2 lbs.  I was pissed off.  I had a really rough week and I just knew I lost more than that. 

To top it off, the woman who weighed me talked to me like since I'm so big I should have lost more my first week. 

So yesterday while watching my team lose, I enjoyed myself even though I knew better.  I didn't go all out but I did have a salad from Jack in the Box.  We grilled yesterday and I had a boneless, skinless chicken breast and two drumsticks.  I also had some of those baked sweet potato fries which were delicious but 3 points per serving.  I had about two to three servings   I had a ww dessert for 3 points and a ww meal for 6 points.  I also had two drinks which were 3 points each. 

I'm supposed to up my activity level this week but it's hard for me to let go of the fact that I felt so unsupported at that last weigh in.  What am I paying for?  I thought I was paying for some motivation.  I just feel bummed.

Anyhow I lost 2 lbs.  I'm going to aim to lose another 2 this week if possible after yesterday.  Bleh. 

On to better news, I had a phone interview with that other company and it went well.  I have to go test on Friday for HR. The training doesn't start until January but that gives me light at the end of the tunnel so I don't flip out in here.  The HR guy assured me that my training would be for 12 weeks not ONE like here and he went into explaining the benefits of working there.

I am willing to give it a try I suppose.  I would rather be somewhere else anyhow.

So, Friday is my first weigh in.  I have been cheating and weighing myself every morning just to keep myself on track.  I think I will have lost at least 5 lbs by the first way in but I'm hoping that number doesn't change to +5 LOL.

I'm stressed out about work and what move do I want to make.  I have been offered an opportunity at another company that I think I may just take a chance on. 

I just want to be able to fit in and be around people I can relate to.  I feel like an odd ball here and it makes my work environment suck.  I know I shouldn't care because the whole idea is to get money but I like to be able to laugh and have a conversation with someone too! 

I'm tired of people looking at me like "How did she get that job?" or "She can't know what she is doing... look at her!".  It's starting to piss me off. 

I keep to myself here because you never know people's motives for being your "buddy".  Especially here where there is a mix of temp and permanents.  Temps who are trying to get on permanent will do anything to get you out of their way.  Bleh!

Anyhow break is over and it's back to the grind.