Mahogany_Buttafly
After visiting the Endocrinologist, I was diagnosed with Insulin resistance/borderline diabetes. They put me on metformin to help with the insulin resistance and birth control for the Cyst. At this time I decided to research my options. I know my health would only become worse. In 2004 I decided to have the gastric bypass, at first my family was not having it, they had heard to many horror stories. So as you can imagine that persuaded me to leave that thought alone. In October 2004, I heard that my insurance company which was Humana was going to no longer accepting claims for the surgery. I went back to my family and friends and pleaded for their support. My mom and dad said go ahead, but my granny didn’t want to hear it.
Well where should I begin… I have always been on the plus size all my life. It never bothered me growing up, because the only people that use to tease me where my cousins. As I became older, I learned that there was nothing wrong with being chunky, God created everyone with a different look for a reason. I was a very active girl in high school; in fact I was on the dance line. By the 10th grade, I became captain of the squad, to the surprise of many. I was actually a good dancer though. When I went away to college of course I gained the “Freshman 15” and then some.
Over time I noticed I was gaining weight and my skin was becoming very dark in the face. I went from a period every month to one every three months to none. I would come home from college during breaks and visit my doctor, who swears it was normal, I probably was stressed. He never ran any test, or sent me to any specialist. In 2003 I was rushed to the hospital because I was having severed lower abdominal pains. After having a ultrasound completed, I was informed I had PCOS. I followed up with my doctor and was informed of my options and sent to two specialists.
In January 2005 I decided that I was living for me, and nobody else. If I felt this procedure would better me as a person, then to do it. This time I chose a different doctor, his staff was very friendly, and my PCP also recommended him. Although he has several requirements, I was ready for the journey. I just knew I would get approved, because my health was getting bad. In May 2005 I received my denied letter, my family said it was not meant to be, and of course said God wanted me to leave the idea of cutting myself alone.
I joined the Gym again and decided I would do this naturally I HAD NO CHOICE. Well that lasted about 2 months. In September 2005 I woke up one morning and could not walk. I was rushed to the ER, and was advised that I had Gillans Barae. After being hospitalized for 2 weeks, the test results came back that I was misdiagnosed. I was released back home, not walking with no answer as to why I couldn’t move my upper and lower extremities. I moved in with my grandma, dropped out of college, and was forced to resign from work. Which put me in a complete depression, after about 9 months of not being diagnosed but mentally and physically knowing I was ill; my PCP referred me to a rheumatologist. After ruling out MS, Arthritis, CFS, Lupus, I was informed that I had Fibermyalgia. I have undergone several physical therapies, Acupuncture and home remedies to gain my strength and to be able to deal with the pain. Carrying this weight has not made it easy and I am going to see the doctor next week for the surgery. I hope that since I now have Cigna I will get approved, I am afraid of what my health will be like in 2-5 years if I don’t.
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