I pray that your surgery is uneventful and your recovery is speedy. Life is too short to spend your days wondering on shoulda coulda wouldas people. If there are things in life that you want to do or have always dreamed of doing JUST DO IT! Go for it. You will never know what coulda happened if you don't try. Find the strength within yourself to step out of the box and do the things you have always dreamed about. Be creative. Be unique. Do something safe, but outrageous. You deserve it. Good Luck!!!