MarcosMom
T-minus who knows....
Jul 14, 2010
So, here I am. First night scouring the forums here for everything from "Dealing with type I diabetes" to randomly finding some people I think I want to follow because they look like me, or write like me, and I want to see them succeed as a way to feel that I can too.I'll be honest, I'm scared. I'm worried about the technical side of everything, surgery, going under...waking up. I guess NOT waking up is the real fear. Okay, now that I've mentioned that, it makes me remember all the people who have had horrendous PAIN. Well, I'm a female, not a stranger to regular pain, broken bones, fractures, etc. I always manage to bruise myself on something... but the pain bothers me.
My other fears are that I will have my insulin pump and nobody will know how to take care of it, and I'll be zonked out on propofol (sorry, but the fact that they use it, and it killed MJ makes me kind of amused at saying it, i'm a bad person).
Biggest fear - the hubby. I know he loves me, and we have a lot in common and we spend all of our free time together. But his concern over, "not being able to eat the same thing, go to the same places etc" has weighed on my mind like CRAZY lately. I dont want to exclude him from my life, simply because I cannot eat a massive steak like I once did with him. I try to console him and say, "well, we'll save money, i'll have a bite of your food wherever we go and you'll even be eating less!"
Looking forward to getting the news that its approved. I really really hope it is..and soon. The sooner I get approved, the sooner I get my surgery date, the sooner I dont feel tired all the time, the sooner I get to start my family...the sooner I get to start living.
Well, thats my first entry Isuppose :P My hopes, my fears.. (my goal list grows everytime I think of an obstacle i've had to face).
-K
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About Me
Long Beach, CA
Location
30.1
BMI
Surgery
10/12/2010
Surgery Date
Jul 14, 2010
Member Since
