Did you eat?

Jan 01, 2013

For the past week I have been religiously looking up videos on YouTube about people who have gotten the vertical sleeve gastrectomy. Seeing their stories has lifted up my hopes in such a way that my fears have actually gone away. To be honest the only fear I have now, is not getting it done.

At the same time while I am so happy and exited to start this journey. I have a tremendous sadness in my heart.  I am sad because so many of us obese people go through life not enjoying it to the fullest.  We are limited by our weight, and we miss out on precious time with our family and children. That is something I have never really paid any attention to.. Until now!

This weekend my 2 nephews came over the house to stay the night. They usually sleep over on the weekend. The oldest one tells me “Tia (aunt) can we watch a movie today?” I said: “sure we can, but when your little brother finishes his game on the computer, that way we can all enjoy the movie… we just have to decide what to watch”

So about 30 minutes later he asks me again “Tia aren’t we going to watch a movie?” I tell him that I have been waiting for them to finish their game on the computer, but if they are done we can go ahead and start a movie.

He looks at me with a smile, then his face expression changes within seconds and asks me “did you eat?” I said:  “no I haven’t eaten I’m not hungry, but why are you asking anyway”… He tells me “Because every time you eat before we sit to watch a movie, you get very tired, fall asleep and we end up watching the movie by ourselves”.

That comment broke my heart into pieces. It’s like he was telling me how I’m missing out on our nephew/aunt time.   It’s the truth no matter how small of a meal I have, I always get extremely tired, and even though I try to fight off the tiredness, sleep always overcomes.

When we watch a movie, I always get awakened by their laughter and I ask “what did I miss” and I always see the disappointment in their faces as they tell me I have missed another happy moment.

My obesity takes over... I am tired of missing snippets of my nephew’s life because I am too fat to keep up, or too tired to stay awake.

I don’t want to keep missing anymore happy moments… Life is too short, and my nephews will grow up soon.

-May

p.s. leave a comment if you have ever experienced something similar.

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