186.5

Dec 16, 2012

Today was my Monday weigh in and I lost five pounds. That's great. I exceeded my goal which was 189lbs. Before I get into a long winded thought process let me just set my goal for next Monday. In a perfect world I would wake up at my ideal weight, but since I'm living in the world where food is sooo delicious. I'll be realistic, yet still push the envelop. My goal for next Monday is 181. There I said it! Now the rant! ;-)

So that was for my realistic goal (put still pushing) HOWEVER! I do have the actual goal that I will be working towards which is 176 which is double what I wrote...How will I get this done? you might be asking. Well, if it's simple math I will just work out twice a day instead of once. and maybe instead of working out for a half and hour I can actually push myself to one hour.

I don't have a scheduled job that I have to actually get to at a particular time. Since this isn't the norm for me I may as well take advantage of this opportuinity of free time. Certainly I haven't done well with this extra time I've had on my hands. Really, i've just gained a lot of weight. At first it felt comfortable to lay around and do absolutely nothing and eat whenever and whatever I wanted. I good sign that your health and eating is going down the tube is when you become too lazy to even feed yourself (Every meal is fast food and delivered) YUP, that's exactly what I did.

It has just been this past week that I decided to give it up. Actually it was decided for me, when my kids got sick with the flu and it was passed on to me. I didn't have an appitite for 3 days (I still ate) but then I realized that even though I was sick it felt kinda good not falling asleep with food in my mouth and waking up with the thought of what should I eat next.

Not ashamed of that though. It's simply something that I went through and fully aware of. I can't say I enjoyed it either. I just slipped back in to that place where doing nothing was the norm. I was never active, infact I never learned to ride a bike and simple things that most everyone can do. I was more taught to be responsible and be adult like....Well sad for me, there weren't any great adults to look up to and they all pretty much just ate and sat still as well. So it's very easy to get back to that place without feeling like anything at all is wrong.

So next weigh in goal is 181

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