Melissa C.

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For the last almost month i have been stuck between 3 lbs up and down.  I finally got the walking revved up a bit (ok- who am i kidding- i should say i am now walking regularly)... and finally had a couple pound drop.  I would say i was trying to figure out what was going on but i think i know... besides not getting enough protein and then craving less healthy, i have been doing the stress snacking.  Although i eat WAY less than ever before, if i "work at it" I can surely get in too many calories.  I want to knock that off and get back on track.  Also i do believe i have been mourning my old self a bit... i go to the thrift store and there are clothes that are too big and i think, geez, that would have fit!  Yes i am totally happy the smaller ones fit, i love it!  But i still find myself a bit sad about who i was being gone.  I still have a ways to go to get to my goal also- Dr says 200, i was saying 175, now i am just hoping to make it to 200.  Guess that is NOT the way to think huh?!?!?!  

It has been almost a month since my last entry... i discovered i was allergic to the whey protein and switched to soy- such a difference!! I am only down 22 pounds- most of which i lost in first two weeks.....  Since then, was getting hungrier but i did have my first fill yesterday and I am back to not eating much at all.  I love it!!  So, hopefully pounds will start falling off again.  Now i just need to get on top of the exercise thing and make it VERY regular!! 

All these days thinking i only got like 3 oz at meal times- really should have read my paperwork better that was really just the first day or so.  Geesh... no wonder i was starting to get hungry by Wednesday!
Tonight i tried adding a bit of garlic salt and parmesan to my tomato soup, felt like i was getting spagetti!  It has been great talking to some other women going through same things right now...we can learn so much from others.  I am struggling to get the protein in- that seriously high protein shake with whey protein i have been drinking is starting to be like poison to me- just cannot stand the idea of drinking it! 

Besides still hurting and being sleepy often i am starting to feel like "me" again.  Except in the food department.  The old me would have been dying to be eating- even smelling food would have meant something.  I think right now cause of the pain- easy to not be attracted to the food.  I imagine there will be times it will get way harder throughout this journey but for right now- not wanting food is a pretty amazing feeling all by itself!  Today i am going to drive myself the office max so i can send off my taxes- yes a procrastinator big time!  And.. tomorrow a small trip to my favorite thrift store with a girlfriend- doubt it will be a big expedition- still pretty sore feeling.  But a big treat to be out and about anyway for sure!!!