Mellikat
Ok...my story. Yeah this seems .....alot harder then when I first decided to sit here and type it out. Should I pour out my heart or just give a very short introduction to what I have went thru. Its depressing really. I started gaining weight when I was about 12 or 13, which at the time we did not realize was a sign of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome(which...I HAVE!).
I had massive weight gain in the midsection, and I just kept gaining. I was always a child who was made fun of, even as a smaller kid(was quite shy)...but after I gained the weight I became a even bigger(bah dum bah) target for the kids...and anyone else. From a carload of men chasing me and insulting me...to an old man in the grocery hitting me with his cane when he saw me grab a pack of cookies(i was 15 and my mom was strict on my diet..she said yes this time)...which that was funny cause I had to hold momma bear mother back from beating a geriatric patient up. I am a socially awkward person, mainly cause of how people treated me as a child growing up. I know this isn't going to change when I become a smaller person(already 16 lbs lighter as of Dec. 14, 2006...had the sugery Nov. 29, 2006)..this sugery isnt magical...its work..hard work.
I am still highly shy...paranoid in public if I hear laughter, have bad self image(very bad). I think this is a problem with most heavy people though. The public thinks it is ok to just belittle us whenever they think its appropriate. To laugh at us, without even thinking of our feelings. Granted, there are heavy people who probably could lose the weight naturally, and whose fault it is for thier weight. There are some who have circumstances that are far outweighing the ability to lose it naturally, be it arthritis so bad you need a handicap sticker or having a problem like I have with the PCOS...
I combat the attacks I have endured by others with humour most of the time, if I laugh at myself first, they will be too embarrased to insult me. Faulty logic? I don't know.
Toodles for now.
