michelle2985

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Well, the day is finally here. It doesn't really seem real yet! I feel like it hasn't sunken in that I will actually be having the lapband surgery tomorrow. In a lot of ways I cannot believe I have had the guts to follow throughou on such a major, life altering decision. I usually get scarred and flake out with big decisions. But this time, I am really going to go through with it. The prospect of making this huge commitment tomorrow is very scary but I know it is the best thing I can do for myself right now. I am so happy I will soon have a strong ally in my lifelong weight battle. I thought I would go nuts and have the urge to have a really naughty, unhealthy dinner tonight in panic of my impending liquid diet and change in lifestyle, but instead I had a very healthy dinner and stuck to my protien shakes the rest of the day. I really hope this is a sign that I am more than ready to change my life once and for all. It may also be that these past two weeks on my pre-op diet I have lost 13 lbs and why sabotage myself when I already have a head start? Either way that lack of desire to pig out for my 'last supper' made me feel really good about what I am doing tomorrow. I am a nurse and I know I will not be the easiest patient in the world....I know too much! haha. But I am just gonna try to relax tonight and hope tomorrow goes well. Wish me luck!!
-michelle