missrose77

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I hate myself...  I always have.  I am 29 years old, depressed, agoraphobic, and scared to live life in general.  I have few friends... and for some reason the friends I DO have I DON'T trust... mainly because I think they are lying to me all the time.  I am being treated for the depression and I have my up and down days.... today is definitely a down day. 

I feel HUGE.  As I am getting older I am noticing changes... I am lazier and lazier and now my knees seem to hurt all the time.  I feel old.  I feel ugly.  I feel worthless, lonely, sad... why am I still here?  What is God letting me go through this for???  I know, I know... not God, that other guy who shows up when I am weak.