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Okay...so in just a few days I will be coming up on my 10 month surgery anniversary. It has got me thinking...I am 2 months away from my 1 year anniversary and only about 45 pounds from my goal weight! I look at my life now and how it used to be and realize that this really is the best thing I ever did besides having my children! I am a completely different person...I have gained the confidence and self esteem that I have always lacked. I feel so empowered...kind of like I can conquer the world. lol. I am down to 211 pounds now. I am smaller than I was in High school. I wear a size 14 jeans, medium shirt and medium pajama pants. My sister and I went to Victoria's Secret and bought matching clothes! We have never been able to do this before and it was a HUGE thing for us! We were actually small enough that we could even buy the stuff off the clearance rack (which is usually just the small sizes left) It makes me wish I were rich because I absolutely love to shop now....used to I hated to go shopping because I was huge and couldn't find anything to fit and it seemed like I ran out of breath and was tired before leaving the first store. Anyhow...I also went to the ER last night...I found out that I have a HUGE kidney stone and a kidney infection and they also said that I have some big gallstones in my gallbladder but it's not hurting me right now so we are worried about my kidney. Everyone has always said that kidney stones hurt like crazy...I believe them now! It hurts to move or anything! They even hurt through pain medicine! I go to the urologist on wednesday to see about getting them taken care of. As for now, that's about everything.

Ok...so I have lost a TON of weight...but my weight loss has slowed to like 5 pounds a MONTH now...it's really frustrating...so with today being the last day of 2008 I am going to make a vow to myself to start excersizing...and even getting my children involved so that they can be healthier also....I'm not going to try and over do it...but I think I can walk/jog at least 2-3 days a week and spend a few minutes doing weights twice a week. I have always been a start and never finish or follow through person so I'm making a vow to myself on this one. I am going to up my excersize so that I can reach my goal weight...I want to lose at least 40 more pounds by my 1 year anniversary date. That give me 3 1/2 months to get my booty moving! Anyhow...as far as weights and stuff I am fluctuating between 221 and 224....and I am in a size 16 pants and a large shirt. Sometimes I feel like I'm eating like a pig and sometimes I feel like I'm not eating enough to survive. It's driving me crazy! Anyhow...time to get back to work! 

I havn't updated in a LONG time...so I thought I would clue everyone in! Lol...I am down to 222 pounds and want to reach 205 by christmas....I am still in an 18...but they are really loose on me so I am going this weekend to try on a size 16. My weight loss has really slowed down...so has my hair loss...lol. Thank god I had a horses mane...it's kind of nice not having so much hair to deal with...I am down to a size large t-shirt and my XL scrub pants are too big, but the larges are still too small...Life is totally different now, People notice me and I know it sounds really bad, but they talk to me more...I have noticed so many differences with my peers, etc. Anyhow...I want  to wish everyone a merry CHRISTmas...just in case I don't talk to you again before then!

I am so excited...I went shopping yesterday and I am down to a size 18! I can't believe it! I didn't think I would ever be here! This opens up so many new places that I can shop! Lol...Anyhow..just wanted to let everyone in on the progress...

Okay...so I am now like...3 1/2 months out...I have lost a total of 88 pounds and I wear a size 20/22 now....but I can only fit into a 20 in certain brands. I feel great and I have gotten to where I walk every day....I even have enough confidence in myself to coach cheerleading this year! That is helping a lot with excersizing. I feel great...I only have about 100 pounds left to lose. Which is exciting...however I feel that I'm going to have to work harder at pushing this 100 pounds off. I am falling out of all my clothes...so if anyone has any...please let  me know! Oh...and I am walking the stairs at work all the time! I love being able to walk them without losing a bit of breath...it thrills me!

So i broke down and actually bought myself an outfit! I couldn't believe it! I was in a size 24! I havn't seen that in years! I have been a size 28 forever! I was so excited...so I bought a cute little black and white number to have pics made on the beach with...I am so excited....I can't wait till we go in july! I am hoping we all have a little bit of a tan by then so we don't look flushed in our pictures! Lol. Anyhow..it's bed time...so I'm going to go! Just wanted to share my happiness for a minute!

I weighed today and I have officially lost 50.2 pounds! I am so excited! I didn't ever think I would make it this far! My goal is to be under 300 in the next 7 days....I think I can do it. I started exercise last night. My best friend Rae suggested that I go get a yoga ball....I absolutely love it! I can get my excercise...I can feel the burn, and it helps with the problems that you occur by being overweight....like I did 75 crunches that I couldn't do without it because the floor hurts my back and butt. I did some pushups that I wouldn't normally be able to do because I would have to lift my whole body...and at 307 pounds that's hard to do...the ball makes it to where you just have to lift the top part of your body...I also did some leg lifts...which might I add were HARD AS HECK! I didn't realize how much my legs weigh!!! I could barely do 10 of these! My goal is to add 25 crunches a week and 10 push ups a week...and I'll go easy on my thigh lifts...I think I'll be doing good to add one a week. Lol. I still don't know if I've went down any sizes....I am still afraid to go try clothes on.....All my clothes are baggy on me...so I'm guessing that I will HAVE to get over that soon. My scrubs for work are starting to look like MC Hammer Pants on me! Lol. Anyhow...That's the update for now...I'll be back soon! Everyone take care...and thank you all for your continued support. Without yall and my family (Rae...your my family too...that's why I didn't say friends!) I don't think I could have went through with this! Yall are wonderful!

Hey there! I had to share my weight with everyone! I about cried when I looked down at the scales and realized that I weighed under 320 now! I have lot a total of 41 pounds and am currently weighing 317. I still can't eat much, but I've kinda taught myself to slow down and chew more...so I haven't been sick at all in the past week. Oh...from my previous post...I guess that I should have mentioned that all I had were the sauce and a little bit of the cheese on the pizza. I didn't eat any other toppings or the bread. Just to clarify that! Lol. Anyhow...I was excited about my new weight and just wanted to share with everyone!

Well...I officially regreted my surgery today....okay...so definately I was just lying...but I did get frustrated. I had been craving papa johns...and so my family ordered pizza tonight...and I ate like one bite too many....so I spent my afternoon in the bathroom.....I have no clue how people can stretch their stomach back out...cause there's no way that mine would let me! So...anyhow...it tasted good the few minutes it stayed down....and omg...it hurts so bad to throw up because you don't have a stomach to push it like you used to....so your throat has to do that...but anyhow...the surg. was def. still worth it...I just have to remember that I can't eat like a big girl anymore! (which I didn't...I ate a total of like 4-5 bites...seriously...and it was WAY too much! )

Well...everything is mostly hunky dorey here....I am still trying to learn how my new stomach is working with my body. Things are slow right now..I can only hold down a tiny tiny bit of food and it takes me a  long time to eat. I was having a lot of chest pains, but it is from gas because right after the pains I burp and all the pain goes away....it just hurts really bad in the mean time. Hopefully in the next few days I will be back to semi-normal. It's killing me that I can't pick up my babies and love on them...I feel so helpless around the house. My mom came and cleaned for me...she'll never know how much I appreciate that...my house looks wonderful! She is coming back today to help me with the kids a little bit more...she's wonderful..I'm so lucky to have such a great support system. I can't believe that I have already lost 11 pounds....but I guess tha'ts to be expected with as little as I have ate and all the nausea that I've had.