modestmommy
One week until surgery...
Dec 23, 2010
The last days of my pregnancy I remember rubbing my swollen bump cherishing the miracle that God gave me. Is this nervousness I feel? I can't honestly tell. This emotion feels so similar to the emotion I felt as I approached the scheduled c-section of my last son.
Each time I look at the calendar or the clock today I am reminded that this time next week I will be post-op. I remember the last weeks of my last pregnancy feeling nearly identical emotionally speaking. My body tired, cumbersome. My mind visualizing the new life ahead. My spirit energized and hopeful.
For health reasons I knew that my third 'bonus baby' would definately be my last pregnancy. Knowing it was the last time I would be pregnant helped me to tolerate the extra burdens on my body. With PCOS I was honored to have this suprise miracle of new life. The last days of my pregnancy I remember rubbing my swollen bump cherishing the miracle that God gave me. I took care of myself, watched what I ate and drank. Emotionally I didn't want those days to end.
My spirit and my mind knows that I am making the right decision. I am weathering the liquid diet. I set a goal for myself to take the shakes for 3 weeks instead of the 2 prescribed by the program. Maybe to help my body tolerate the burdens of the upcoming days I will think of myself as being rebirthed on 12/30/10. I will take care of myself; body heart and soul. I will take care of my family and enjoy their loving words during the holidays. I may even take a few rubs at all my bumps and visualize them shrinking ;-)
