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1.) Do you eat when you are not hungry? 
Yes, I am a snacker.

2.) Do you go on eating binges for no apparent reason? 
YES, Mostly when watching movies, or late at night.

3.) Do you have feelings of guilt and remorse after overeating? 
Yes, sometimes though most of the time it is just shock! When I look back at how much I ate in any one meal I often wonder why I never felt full before I got to that point of over eating.

4.) Do you give too much time and thought to food? 
Yes, Usually dinner!! I think about it all day.

5.) Do you look forward with pleasure and anticipation to a time when you can eat alone? 
No, I never eat alone.

6.) Do you plan these secret binges ahead of time? 
No, They really are no secret. I never eat alone.

7.) Do you eat sensibly in front of others and make up for it alone? 
No

8.) Is your weight affecting the way you live your life? 
Yes, I don’t have energy anymore. I easily become out of breath when doing simple tasks, I can’t fit my large frame into certain booths, chairs, benches, play equipment, or rides. I find it extremely hard to shop for clothing so tend to dress frumpy which is not the way I use to be. I worry more now then ever about dying young due to health concerns like diabetes. I find it hard to sleep because I have to sleep on my side and when I do that I feel like my weight is crushing me!

9.) Have you tried to diet for a week (or longer) only to fall short of your goal? 
YES, I have tried: Trim Spa, Atkins, The Diabetes Diet, Lean Cuisine, Slim Fast, Green Tea Pills, Vivarin, 48hr Juice diet... all combined with some sort of physical activity like swimming, aqua aerobics, aqua exercise, softball, soccer. All to no avail.

10.) Do you resent others telling you to "use a little willpower" to stop overeating? 
YES!!

11.) Despite evidence to the contrary, have you continued to assert that you can diet "on your own" whenever you wish? 
Yes & No I have said that to myself before but as of 6 months ago and the Trim Spa incident I believe I can’t do it alone.

12.) Do you crave to eat at a definite time, day or night, other than mealtime? 
No, though there does seem to be a pattern when my binges occur…late at night but it is not every night. 

13.) Do you eat to escape from worries or trouble? 
No

14.) Have you ever been treated for obesity or a food-related condition?
Not until now. Before I looked into WLS I was always told by Dr.’s I need to loose weight and that I was morbidly to severely morbidly obese. 

15.) Does you eating behavior make you or others unhappy?
Not that I am aware of?

Today is fathers day & we have decided to drive down to Ft. Stevens and visit the Military museum. Aaron will LOVE this I am sure of it…This was actually our plan C as our Plan A ~ Fishing, was a no go due to rain (Yeah I hear it is the best time to fish but with 3 little ones its not so fun!!) Plan B ~ pick nick at the beach, but since it is raining here it will be raining there… Plan C ~ Ft. Stevens here we come!

It was a blast!! We walked to all the out building / remains of the decommissioned Ft. Stevens. We did not make it to the Jail in time as we go there they were just locking the door. There is always next time…Dylan was a little scared when we first arrived because some men were doing a small Civil War reenactment. They were shooting blanks but Dylan being 2 did not know that. Cameron was oblivious and Jordan knew it was pretend. We all had so much fun exploring the buildings. We found a nest and apparently the mom bird did not like us that close to it…she flew/dove at us so we decided it would be best to walk on. Aaron and the kids went to the upper level while I stayed with Cameron and the stroller on the lower level. We toured the Museum building just before leaving to see all uniforms and relics from the different War times. It was a wonderful day…to top it off we decided to go the 14 miles to Seaside and drive on the sand of the beach. It was Drizzly with a bit of a haze but still so nice.

Well it is the start to a new healthy me and I have decided to start my “Self awareness” with a Journal! I know I have been writing down some stuff on here but now I really plan on writing everyday….lol we will see how long that lasts…I have never been one to keep a Journal/Diary (Mainly because I am a horrible speller! And I hate to share my private thoughts with others)  But who cares…I highly doubt that anyone on here will read everything I write?

Besides we are all on the road to the same goal…WLS. I feel here is as best a place if any to write all about my nutrition and weight related observations. That is mainly what is controlling my quality of life not to mention my physical health. It is so sad to think of all the diet product’s I have tried and failed at, the work out videos, Gym memberships and so on that I have purchased ALL HAVE FAILED and I find myself sitting at 313 lbs (314 if your use my Dr. Scale)!

But now with the decline of my moms health and seeing the same / similar decline in mine I am even more determined. I don’t want to die anytime soon. I worry about my PreDiabetes turning into type II. I am concerned with my High BP one Dr. visit to my very Low blood pressure the next Dr. Visit…that can not be good either?? I don’t want to see my own children go through the same things I am going through so now begins my Journey of self awareness!

Well on the 9th when I first talked to my mom she did not seem to think having the surgery was a smart idea. I did not really fight the point and just let it go.

Well today when she come over for my nieces B-Day she asked when my Dr. appointment was and said you are going to have it done right? She must have spoken to my sister? I told her yes and she said that she just wanted to let me know that she may have come off "against" it the other day when we talked but that she just would not want it done. We talked about the procedure and about this web site and some of the others I had been looking at. I let her know I had researched the procedure and I let her know that it would most likely be about a year or so before my surgery. I told her tons and tons of other stuff too and well....lol...by the time I was finished talking she did not want to hear any more I am sure of it :) she seemed to support my decision.

Well I have to take either a 5wk or 12wk nutrition course before I can be accepted for the surgery so called the Health Nutrition Dept. and registered for the 5wk class starting July 23rd. I am also registered for the baratric support group meeting and will go to my first one on June 19th! :) Whoo Hoo!!

On Friday I had called over to my old Dr.'s office (The one I had before I had Kaiser Insurance)

The whole reason I called over to my old Dr is because I want to take over my medical records to Kaiser... well today my old Dr calls and said that either him or the plastic surgeon I had previously seen would gladly send a referral for me to see a Bariatric surgeon. Only one hitch... I would have to call up Kaiser insurance billing department and find out what the "Referral procedure" is as they do not usually deal with Kaiser...

I got all excite hearing that so quickly call Kaiser only to be told that I have to and can actually only see a Kaiser Dr. for a referral to see the Baratric surgeon. This is all fine since I had that scheduled for Friday anyway. Just thought it would be a lot easer if my old Dr who actually knows me could have written the referral.