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I am a very strong in my faith...I am a wife to a wonderful man .I am a parent of 3 wonderful grown children. A beautiful daughter in law, another one to become my daughter in law in Aug. I have spent the last 27 years being a mom and loving every minute..
For the last 3 years I have been a foster parent for high risk teenage girls. I currently have 6 of them in my home..
 Life is busy,,,,I am a sunday school teacher, and I work full time outside of the home...I have been a caregiver to everyone but myself all of my adult life...It has only been the last year that I have really done some soul searching and discovered I have left someone behind,,, that was me....I have been so busy making sure everyone else is healthy and happy I have let myself go...I am doing this journey for myself,,, I want to be healthy,,, I finally came to the realization that I am worth it. I looked in the mirror a few months ago to get ready for work and wondered who the fat lady that would not share the mirror was...It was not a fun realization...but it was a wake up I needed.
 I am determined to get my life back...I have failed at every diet known to man,,,woman or anyone else and I know in my heart that this is the direction I am to take...
God has given me a unbelievable strength and I need to use that strength to over come obesity..And I will .....
God bless all of you who are also on this journey...Remember to love yourself, give yourself the understanding you would someone else..and feel blessed that we will be a person who will not judge others by their size..Use this tool you have been given to help others also..

I went to the seminar Monday night. Today rec cl from the surgeons office I have a appt for July 17th to see the surgeon.
 My Dr called today my sugar is up.. cholesterol up so increasing my zocor. 
I have a appt for the sleep study on July 18th. 
I have to make appt for psyche eval tomorrow and go back to my Dr on Monday for a fasting glucose test. 
 Meds for my acid reflux not working real well so I am not sleeping well and I am sooooo tired...
Just pray this all goes well and my insurance does not give me a hard time

I saw my Dr today. She is wonderful and so supportive. She said my BMI is 39.4 and she is willing to fight to get this done. We went over my gurd, high cholesterol.(over 300) my shortness of breath, aching knees, being tired all the time and snoring so loud the whole house wakes up. She ordered a ton of lab work, echo of my heart, doppler of my arteries in my neck, sleep study, and I have my seminar tomorrow night with the clinic.
 Per her this may be a fight, but it is a fight she is willing to do with me to get my insurance to cover it. My weight today was 244 and I am 5' 6". Not much to be proud of, but she said "When you have this surgery it will be so much easier for you to exercise and eat smaller amounts." Not if but when. I felt like someone is in my corner. 
Pray my insurance feels the same way... I have to rely on my faith right now.