I hope this is my beginning....

Feb 19, 2010

 I have always felt that I was a skinny girl trapped in a fat girl's body. I always got "you have such a pretty face but would be even prettier if you lost weight". I'm sure they are right. Just very hurtful to hear. For me eating has always been my safety net. It gives me comfort, even to this day. I'm an emotional eater..hell I'm just an eater. I love food and I can't deny that. I have gotten so big now that I'm having trouble sleeping at night, pain in my ankles and feet, shortness of breathe. The list can go on....And yet I still don't put down the fork..Why is that? When will I stop hurting myself? 
My best friend has decided to get the gastric bypass which is how I got to this site. I wish I had her motivation but I don't. I'm hoping with reading success stories and seeing her weight loss will motivate me to do it on my own.
I know how to eat properly and what I should be eating...I just don't do it. I have a problem with portions and self control over junk food. Sweets are my addiction and my biggest downfall. 
It really saddens me that when I met my husband he was really skinny and now because of my unhealthy eating habits he has gotten a big belly. I hope I can at least do this for him.
I need to find the motivation......

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