Dedra Ellis
NO EXCUSES...I SHOULD HAVE POSTED SOONER!
Dec 15, 2007
I am almost at 6 months and I personally feel that i should be furhter along but I haven't had the time to work out like I should. I guess I should have asked for a gym membership for Christmas.
I am now wearing a size 16 from a 24 and I will probably be in a 14 soon. I don't buy alot of clothes unless they are on clearance because they are so big so fast. Like today I went to Belk's and found some nice pants for $7.00. That's about my limit if I buy something. I am determined to wear my clothes until they fall off. My family says I need smaller clothes and I know I do but what's the point if I wear my scrubs during the week and my pajamas on the weekend.
I have problems seeing myself like other people see me. Like I still see the big Dedra. I am thinking about seeing a therapist for this.
There is not much else to post. I hope that it won't be another 3 months again.
Take Care OH Family,
Dedra
Can You Believe It's September?
Sep 03, 2007
My birthday is in 17 days. I won't to at least have lost 15 more pounds and if I don't then I will do it by Thanksgiving. I will be 38 this year. And then 2 days after my birthday I will be 3 months out.
I am glad that I had WLS. I feel more confident about myself. I am finally learning who Dedra is and what Dedra likes. I can sit in a regular desk at school where I use to go to class extra early so that I could sit at a table so I would be comfortable and not embarassed because I couldn't fit. I went shoping for the first time and bought some "sexy" clothes. I haven't worn them yet but just to have them is amazing. All of my clothes are way to big for me now including my underwear. I can't believe it. Who would have thought!
Well I have to get out of here. I am going to post some pictures again soon. This week is the first home football game at ECU!!! Go Pirates. I am planning to have a good time and be comfortable sitting in a regular seat without worrying if I am crowding the person beside me.
Dedra
Note to self...Increase Protein!!!
I FEEL GOOD
Aug 16, 2007
DEDRA
Monthly Post
Jul 17, 2007
I can now walk 3 miles andnot be out of breath. The only problem I seem to be having now is shutting the exercise energy off. Dr. Brown put me on Ambien for 4 days to try and get me a cycle.
I will be seeing Dr. Bauman on Thursday and I hope that he will be happy with me progress.
Until next time...
Dedra
LIQUID DIET SUCKS
Jul 02, 2007
DEDRA
1 WEEK POST OP
Jun 28, 2007
I AM GOING TO GET THESE HORRIBLE STAPLES OUT TODAY. THEY FEEL LIKE THEY ARE PULLING MY SKIN AND I AM HOPING FOR SOME RELIEF IN ABOUT AN HOUR OR SO WHEN I SEE DR. BAUMAN.
I AM NOT SURE HOW MUCH WEIGHT I HAVE LOST BUT I KNOW THAT I MUST HAVE LOST A LOT OF INCHES. I WORE A BLOUSE YESTERDAY THAT I HAVE NOT WORN IN A YEAR AND IT WAS LOOSE ON ME. SO THAT WAS A MOMENT WHEN I SAID THIS IS REALLY WORTH EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH.
I HAD A BAD DAY ON WEDNESDAY. I WAS SO DEPRESSED AND WANTED TO HAVE SOMETHING IN MY MOUTH TO CHEW. I DON'T THINK THAT I NECESSARILY WANTED TO SWALLOW IT BUT I JUST WANTED TO TASTE SOMETHING DIFFERENT. THE HARDEST PART FOR ME RIGHT NOW IS COOKING FOR MY FAMILY. I KNOW THAT ENERYONE IS GROWN BUT MY SON WORKS THIRD SHIFT AND SO DOES RICK AND I JUST WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT THEY EAT. SO I MADE BBQ PORK CHOPS FOR THEM. THE AROMA OF THE BBQ COMING FROM THE OVEN WHEN I OPENED IT...OH MY!!! THEN I WAS THINKING-WHY DID I DO THIS TO ME, I COULD BE EATING SOME OF THIS RIGHT NOW? SO I CRIED AND WENT TO BED FEELING BAD. I COULDN'T TALK ABOUT IT TO THEM BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT THEM TO FEEL BAD BECAUSE I DID. SO I GOT PAST THAT AND I AM SURE THAT IT WON'T BE THE LAST TIME THAT THIS WILL HAPPEN.
I GUESS I WILL GO GET DRESSED AND GET READY TO LEAVE FOR CONCORD. I AM GOING TO MY GODMOTHERS AFTER MY APPOINTMENT AND WE ARE SUPPOSE TO BE GOING TO GET SOME THINGS THAT I NEED. I NEED A BLENDER. I TRIED TO USE MINE THE OTHER DAY AND COULD NOT GET IT TO WORK SO I AM GIONG TO WALMART TO GET A CHEAP ONE. I AM ALSO GOING TO START LOOKING FOR A GEORGE FOREMAN GRILL SINCE I WILL BE EATING LOTS OF GRILLED FOODS WHEN I CAN AND I AM LOOKING FOWARD TO THAT DAY.
DEDRA
4 DAYS POST OP
Jun 26, 2007
I FINALLY GOT TO TAKE A SHOWER AND THAT HELPED ME TREMENDOUSLY. THERE IS NOTHING LIKE A HOT SHOWER, A GOOD BOOK, AND SOME PROTEIN AND WATER.
I HAVE BEEN EXERCISING. THAT INCLUDES WALKING WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT FOR AS FAR AS I CAN GO WITHOUT GETTING LIGHT HEADED. MY DAUGHTER VIVICA HAS BEEN WONDERFUL WALKING WITH ME. I AM GOING TO TRY AND WALK MY ENTIRE NEIGHBORHOOD TODAY. THIS IS LIKE A 20 MINUTE WALK SO IT SHOULD GO JUST FINE.
I HAVEN'T WEIGHED BECAUSE I DIDN'T PURCHASE A SCALE. OF ALL THE THINGS NOT TO BUY. I KNOW THAT I HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT BECAUSE MY FACE IS LOOKING SLIMMER AND MY PJ'S ARE KINDA JUST ON ME.
MY INSICIONS ARE HEALING NICELY AND I GET MY STPALES OUT ON FRIDAY WHEN I SEE DR. BAUMAN. STILL HAVING SOME GAS BUT IT HAS NOT BEEN BAD AT ALL. I AM ACTUALLY ABLE TO SLEEP ON MY SIDE INSTEAD OF SLEEPING ON MY BACK.
WELL I AM GOING TO SIGN OFF FOR NOW. I HAVE SOME OTHER THINGS TO DO AND I HAVE TO GO TO WALMART.
DEDRA
HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL
Jun 24, 2007
DENA WAS MY NURSE LAST NIGHT AND SHE IS JUST A JOY TO BE AROUND. SHE ANSWERED ALL OF MY QUESTIONS AND WAS ABLE TO OFFER ME SOME TIPS.
I DO REALIZE THE KEY TO ALL OF THIS IS TO START WALKING AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. I HAD SUREGERY FIRDAY AND FRIDAY EVENING I WAS UP WALKING AND THEN EVERYTIME I GOT UP TO GO TO THE BATHOOM I WOULD JUST TAKE A LAP AROUND THE HALL WHICH IS LIKE A TRACK.
I HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT YET--I GAINED 13 POUNDS WHICH THEY SAY IS NORMAL BECAUSE OF ALL OF THE FLUIDS BUT HOPEFULLY ALL OF THAT WILL BE OVER THIS WEEK.
WELL I AM TIRED SO I AM GOING TO MAKE THIS POST SHORT. TAKE CARE EVERYONE AND IF YOU ARE LOOKING INTO WLS AND DON'T HAVE A DOCTOR YET PLEASE CALL DR. BAUMAN. YOU WON'T BE DISAPPOINTED AT ALL.
DEDRA
2 DAYS LEFT
Jun 20, 2007
Well I finally completed every test, evert appointment, every insurance call....everything!!! I had my last appointment today at NEMC. Now the only thing that I have to do is show up on Friday and have WLS.
I am still not feeling anything..no frets and no regrets. I am just ready to move on to the next phase in my life.
There's not really anything else to talk about. I am going to try and post tomorrow if I have time. I have to do my boewl prep tomorrow as soon as I get home from work so I will probably busy with that.
Take care everyone and wish me luck!!
Dedra
3 DAYS BEFORE I AM A LOSER
Jun 19, 2007
I have been trying to imagine what it is going to be like to lose a significant amount of weight. I wonder how I am going to look after all of these years of just seeing this obese body. I wonder what people are going to say to me when they see me and haven't seen me for a while. They will probably think I am sick and you know what to some degree they are right because I am sick and tired of being a big person.
I am still not feeling any anxiety or stress about the surgery. I still have a peace that passes all understanding even mine. It's as if it just follows me around everywhere I go. I have been sleeping better at night and I am much more relaxed even after going to a job that I don't really like anymore. (Please join me in prayer for another job OH Family!)
I am going to meet with the people at the surgery center tomorrow at 8:30 am and then the next time that I go to Concord I will be going to the hospital for surgery.
I want to say to everyone who hasn't gotten a date or feel as though this surgery is not going to become a reality to you please don't give up. You are so close trust me I know.
May God bless us all and continue to keep usin His all knowing!
Dedra