Is what you see in teh mirror real after surgery?

Mar 02, 2013

OK since I have been having troubles with my abdominal area for almost a year now the doctors have decided to do a restrictive diet on me. This started last Sunday. Since then I am down 11 pounds. I know whomever may read this would like to know exactly what they are letting me eat. Well its crazy to me to basically go back to square one but that is what they wanted me to do for the first 3 days. 

OK let me break it down. I was prescribed a colon cleans for 3 days. Starting with 1 bottle Thursday night and then 2 bottles on Friday 1 at 4PM and the other no later then 9PM. Saturday I had to drink a bottle of water (16 OZ.) between each colon cleanse drink I drank 3 that day. Then Sunday the change in food came. I was for the next three days have nothing but broth, water and sugar free jello. By Wednesday I could have a water based protein drink (ISOPURE) and pureed tuna with light mayo salt & pepper to taste nothing extra. Starting on Thursday for the next 2 wks I could have all the seafood I wanted but it cannot be fried. OH yeah and nothing processed. I have to drink a minimum of 64 oz of water each day and I could only have 1 cup of coffee to no more than 6 oz.

So now that you know what I am eating my mind was caught off guard the other day because I did notice a change in the way my cloths felt and the way my face looked but if I looked too long I saw the 167 pound me, not the 156 pound me. What is going through my mind. I notice the little things like my thighs don't poke out as much as they did a week ago. I walk on my treadmill twice a day for 1 mile each time and 3.5 speed. it takes about 20 min. or so. that's about how much time I can do it before I get bored. 

But I really want to know how is it that we spend so much time looking at the fat self that we can't see ourselves getting smaller right before our own eyes. I know what the scale needs to read before I start to look like a crack-head. I will not go down that road again. I can't become that small anymore.

But it still makes me wonder what we see when we look in the mirror. I was a bulimic/anorexic in high school and part of my college times and I do remember a time when I would look in the mirror and not see me any smaller than I was the month before and then I would get odd starts when changing for gym or a teacher would ask was i feeling OK? I think I am going through this same phase again. I wonder if anyone else is going through this same phase.

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