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OMG!!! it's been almost 4 months since the surgery and who ever would have thought i'd experience all i have. 
i am down a total of 46lbs and am feeling awesome.  I have major issues with what i can and can not eat and i get stuck alot but i still do not regret this. my son can finally wrap his arms around my waist and touch his hands!!! (he's 8).   and the attention i am finally getting after 32 years of being invisible is pretty awesome too!  i feel like i am alive after all this time!  it's funny that the shell i've worn for so long is slowly shedding and i couldn't be happier!!!

Ok, so I am 19 days post op and I am feeling good and doing good! I have lost  15 lbs since surgery and am freaking out that it is not enough, but I did go  from a size 20/22 to a 18/20 tops and 14/16 bottoms! 
I have had some problems and there have  been a few times where I doubted my decision even after surgery,  but I guess thats all just par for the course, right!?!
I feel pretty good- the whole port thing- I still have to get used to that- but the pain from it is finally almost gone and I am ready to hit curves full throttle!  My worst complaint is that I can't eat anything! The scary twist to that is that for the first time in my life I am not STARVING!!!  I needed food so bad that I ate all day -everyday, and now I don't have the desire.  I think that has to do with the not being able to eat issue. All during the night right after the surgery, I had this HORRIBLE pain in my chest and at one point I started throwing up and instantly  felt better. I got the same pain during the swallow test , failed it cause my throat was completely closed, and had to have Dr A rush over and remove the 1cc of fluid he had in the band. Now I am 3 weeks out and can't really eat any pureed  meats unless I drown it in broth and I don't even have the desire to bother.
Other than all that I am so happy!  (I know I sound bipolar! )  People are finally noticing I dropped a few pounds and the attention feels good! I have more energy and I don't have any of the aches and pain that were starting to become daily.  I made the right decision and am proud of myself but I still have some stuff to work on .  I didn't realize  how life altering  this journey was going to be... but I know I did the best thing!

Ok, I saw Dr. Ahmad yesterday and I am finally ready!!! 
Yay!!! My surgery is scheduled for next Friday- 8/22/08-
and ironically it is my 15th yr anniversary with my hubby.
I am praying to God that I will be blessed during my surgery and everything will be fine...  I am just so nervous now!!!

Yesterday was supposed to be my surgery....

Boo Hoo- I wanna cry my eyes out- but I did that already.

I am pissed as all hell.

It seems even though I had completed all the steps and the surgeon had all my reports and tests as of 7/12/08- no one in his office submitted the paperwork to the insurance company untill 7/31/08 and I didn't get the approval from the insurance in time for yesterday.
In fact I still don't have it. 

Boo Hoo hooooooo!!!!!
I could hurt someone.....
but then I 'd be in jail.....  and who wants that?

Then I'd never have the surgery! 

I am so disappointed and depressed.      

There are scheduling conflicts at work and the new 2 dates I can schedule for the surgery are not going to work so that will push the surgery back untill 2nd week of September and I don't want to wait that long!!! 

I have been on the low carb high protein diet since 7/12 and I want to eat a big platter filled with pasta and rice!!!  and my birthday is Tuesday!!! 
I know I shouldn't but gosh...... I have 3 more weeks to make it up now!  
I just want to say thanks to the people who left messages...
The support is so appreciated and enjoyed.... 

but it didn't happen...  :( 

and to anyone reading this who this same situation is happening too...
I know how you feel...  and it really sucks!!!! 

God is good and it will happen!

We just have to wait and be patient!