ncredibleeswyt
Ups and Downs..
Jan 13, 2010
Im sitting here, listening to Alicia Keys "Unthinkable" and feeling a deep depression coming on..Ive been running around like a mad woman tryna get all my medical records, appointments and weigh-ins completed.. I missed a month In Aug and had to start the 6 Months allllll over! CAN U SAY PISSED?
My Grandfather; the rock of my life. the calm before during and after every storm Ive encountered passed away in November and Ive lost 18lbs since then..
My new surgery date will be sometime in February.. How cool would it be if it was on the 19th (My bday) Ive gotten so used to not doing anything for birthdays maybe that'll be the excitement and change I need.. Who knows.
Im just ready to shed this shell that I know is holding me back from so much!
Ive always been the center of attention, the one who gets the party started but The last 3 yrs Ive been back in NY have been a real eye-opener for me. I came back to NY from Ga after being there 2yrs and doing extremely well, FOR LOVE.. I used to feel stupid for doing it but, it was a lesson learned, It lasted 2 yrs and I was told to leave.. DAMN!
now im being asked to come back.. go figure..lol
Im heading back to Georgia the end of this yr and this time im definitely "gonna do me" Ive gotten the skool thing in order now I attend and online University(Capella) and couldnt be happier.. Im working on the job part and Finding myself again.. I had gotten so wrapped up in love, In other people, I didnt do anything for myself anymore.. I dont remember the last time I shopped and I love Shopping..
In some sense I feel like Ive been broken, .... SAD
Im ready for new beginnings and new positive people to enter my life..
OHH how could I forget I was pushing a size 28 hard! but I can comfortable fit in a 26 and pull up a 24 but it wont close.. Lol.. But IN DUE TIME!
XOXO LUV U ALL.. thanx for the well wishes
Gonna go get a start on packing for my road trip tomorrow to Alfred State college in NY, My lil cousin is going away to colleg.... IM ESTATIC!
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About Me
NY
Location
35.4
BMI
Surgery
12/19/2011
Surgery Date
Nov 18, 2007
Member Since
