Not so easy way out!

Dec 12, 2012

To all that say it's an easy way out, I will literally kick their asses, it's been a hard journey, my body is still adjusting to food, learning to eliminate the bad but it seems like nothing settles it other than the Keifer drinks.  My stomach pains/ nausea come and go it's a weird sensation I've never felt,  food sits well at times and sometimes it's hell with the discomfort. Incision pains are gone but on over casted days I can still feel the big ones and spanks it is 24/7.

In another hand alcoholic beverages seem to settle my stomach better than food since it's not filling. =( I'm not trying to pick up  bad habits again, but it's hard since I have no escape from myself. My tolerance of alcohol is very low, 4 drinks tops every so often and I'm drunk.  Considering my tolerance on how it used to be is a hell of a lot more back then.  But I've become conscience of the caloric intake of drinks especially when you can't chug and drink a bottle of water afterwards with hangovers like I used to.  Sober life sucks but the benefit and the trade off has been life changing and saving.  Much of the aches and pains of knees feet and back have come to almost non existent which I have been ecstatic about but the attention I've been getting has been hard at times dealing with.  People who never even saw you as a person before all of a sudden are changing. (Still angered with the attention) I guess I should take it as a compliment but it's hard when all you ever saw from being overweight is always negative. I dunno, post op now is 4 months and change. Hoping that after 6 months things will change and as I know bodies heal different. Maybe getting on here more often for support and vent will help.

Sadly I'm still always hungry every 2 hours, planning is big in my life now, always I keep trying remember to pack snacks and panic when there is no water available.....

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