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Hi there - this is a very confusing time for me. I just survived breast cancer and wasn't sure I should be doing this. But I'm doing it anyway. The way I look at it, I have nothing to lose and everything to gain. Espcially my "old self" back and a healthier, happier life.
I was never an overweight child or young adult. I had a happy childhood. Lived a good country life. I am from a large family, 14 children-of which I am the 13th. I haven't told any of them my decision yet. I guess I'm afraid they won't agree with what I'm about to do. I'll tell them after and deal with it then. Anyways, I kind of got off track. I started gaining the weight when I was in a bad relationship and just haven't been able to stop. Even now that I have been away from him for 15 years. I've tried so many diets now, put on 100 lbs, lost 100, gained 150 lbs and I'm real tired of this yoyo syndrome. It's time to do the surgery and be my old happy go lucky self again. I'm getting ready to retire in 5 or 6 years and if I keep this up all I'll be able to do is sit in a chair and whatch the world go by. Not gonna happen.
I'm scheduled to talk to Dr. Kell Ramos on Saturday, again, about the gastric sleeve surgery. I plan on having it in September or October this year. I spoke to several people who had sugery with Dr. Ramos and I have heard nothing but great things about him. I look forward to meeting him in real person. I have a great friend who is supporting me through this all the way. She knows how I struggle every day just to walk and to try and lose weight. Now I know with her support and all you people in internet land I will succeed. Reading these blogs has really opened my eyes. I really am not alone in this. I know it's not going to be easy at first, but as you have all said, it'll be worth it. Now I can't wait for the surgey and start my journey back to my old self.
Bea
