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Well I am 5 months pre-op and I really feel good it has been quite an expirence and I am still learning each day. I didn't really have any complications in the beginning but now I am dealing with a hernia. It isn't all that bad though I just feel it pop in and out every now and then but not painful really not yet that is. I have lost 80+ pounds already and my self esteem has improved alot i still have quite a way to go to reach my long term goal the day of surgery my starting weight was 324 lbs to date I weigh 238 and losing . It really does feel nice to call myself a loser for a change and feel proud of it. I will keep posting as my weight goes so to everyone hang in there and you will see results. I really like the new me.

Today I am really feeling nervous about having the surgery I think it is just last minute jitters, I am really excited all at the same time I really can't weight to be a loser! I have gotten so many tips from people that have had it done that I feel confident that things will work out ok and I will do allright! I have been a little snippity with my other half for the past few days but I will apologize tonight and make it up to him! I know it is just my nerves but he doesn't deserve to be treated like I have been treating him. He is here for me and I need to stop and remember that and not be so selfish. He is a good person and forgives me but as you can tell I feel bad and need to outlet somewhere why not here. My kids are getting nervous as well and I think that is what makes me feel like I do. I would never do a thing to hurt my children and they are worried about complications. All I can do is reassure them things will be fine. I can't wait until I wake up on the other side. 5 days to go and counting! I will post again as soon as i am able to sit and do it after surgery.

I am so excited I finally got approved for the surgery threw the insurance and I have my date August 21st I become a loser and I am so proud to say that. I have waited so long it seems. I will not lie I am scared to death I can't wait until I am waking up in recovery and it is complete. I have really made myself a little to nervous on some things like the epideral in my spine, just the thought of it really terrifies me and any input about it would be really appreciated. What it is is I have never had one so I dont' know what to expect I think if I did I could calm down about it! But I am going to do this there is no stopping me know I have waited and wanted this for so long and so badly that I am amzed it is just around the corner. I will keep every one posted. I had all my labs-bloodwork done and an ultrasound on my gall bladder and everything is fine so I am ready!!! Say a prayer for me all okay!!!

Today is June 28th 2007 and I still have not heard from anyone! I realize it is still soon but I am anxious to get this done. It seems the more I think about things the more I want it.My surgeon/dietician has asked me to try to lose some of the weight that I have before going in and I am trying but I have knee trouble and it is really hard for me to walk any sort of distance that would be beneficial to losing any weight. I hate the waiting part if I only had a date and even if it was months away I could deal with that the not knowing is driving me nuts. But I must be patient I know I have been fat for 36 years I guess a few days or weeks of waiting won't kill me!(LOL) Sometimes I get real scared that after the fact the knee troubles are going to make it so my losing weight slows down. I am taking steps to strenghthen my left knee but It does worry me alot. I really want to succeed with my weight loss program and not be one of those that does not. I need to lose 165lbs to be at the ideal weight for me. Gosh that seems so far away right now.

June 20th 2007
Well today I went and saw my surgeon his name is Dr. Clough he seemed very proffesional and knew what he was talking about, he explained the procedure I will have and he showed me a grapg and everything he intended to do which I liked he then asked me if I had any questions and I did he answered everyone one which reassured me he was the surgeon for me.Now I am waiting for the insurance to go threw and then I should be recieveing my date in a few weeeks they told me we'll see though.They have set me up for an ultra souind on my gall bladder and also to check my levels for vitamin deficencys so i hope everything is fine there.It really is the waiting part of the surgery that is tough the old saying hurry up and wait! It seems like it takes forever to get there but in all actuality it is a good thing because you get more educated and more stable by every appt. or I have any way.EMMC is a very large hospital but it looks very clean and sterile and the staff seem very proffessional also. The buliding itself is very well kept and clean and sterile I have been in some big city hospitals that are not as clean and well kept so kudos for that department. I think this is all going to go just fine.

An old friend of mine I hadn't seen in awhile stopped by and introduced me and my boy friend to his new girl friend Jo, It was like she was an angel sent from god to talk to me. She too has had the gastric bypass surgery. And before they came to the house to visit neither was aware I was in the process of setting up the nessacary steps to getting this procedure done. I had so many unanswered questions I wanted to ask ? But then again I didn't want to bombard her either with to many question on our first meeting. But she was really enthusiastic and wanted to talk about things so we chatted and she really put alot of tings into perspective for me.I was informed today that they will be performing an open gastric bypass due to my insurance, I do not know if that is good or bad! They claim Mainecare will not pay for the laproscopic because the procedure costs more, from my research on the web I have read that it takes alot more out of the patient to heal with the open gastric and there may be more complications which in turn in the end will cost the state more for office visits if needed then to go with the safer procedure but who can argue with politicians right! So I am a little scared and If any one has had the open please feel free to send me a message and let me know any and all info, I should know I really will love you for it. God bless, Stacey...