Nervousnelly
12/22/09
Ok, I guess this is how my story starts on here at least. I have been heavy for as long as I can remember. When I was 11 my Mom worked for Wt Watchers and I was on a scholoarship program with them and actually lost almost all of my weight I was supposed to. Well that was a fantastic feeling but on that didn't last that long, because 2 yrs later I was starting to pack in on again and didn't really stop. Of course I have tried a bunch of diets and methods like several other people on this site and sometimes even lost weight, but as usual not for long. There is so much more but I feel like my story is not much different than others, so let me get to the point of why I seeked this site out.
I started this journey in Feb 2009 when I went to a seminar. I have to admit up until this point I was very against the thought of surgery. Once I went to the seminar I started on the path to try to get approval for the surgery. After many months and several Doctor appointments and diet plans and exercise plans it came to October when I finally was working on the last bit of paper work. On December 1, 2009 I got the news that I was approved. I was shaking when I called the office back from their message to find out. I was so excited when I heard I wanted to scream. Then when they transferred me to the surgeon's office to set up the consiltation I was so excited to hear they had an opening that evening. I went and everything went great, I still felt almost giddy. I wanted to schedule right away but realized that would put me in the hospital at Christmas and with 2 small children I felt I should wait. The next date was Jan 6, 2010, but for some reason I hesitated and then that date was gone. There was another date the week after and again I hesitated and told them I would call back and have not yet called to lock in a date.
This is why I am here. I need help. I have suddenly became confussed, scarred, unsure, and a ton of other words that could describe how I feel. Everytime I say I m going to call today, someone says something to doubt my decission. UGHHHH!!!! I feel like I need to talk to a support group or something to help me here. I am soooo close, but can't seem to take that leap.
