Acceptance

Apr 26, 2012

If you have been or are overweight, this is a word you may struggle with when applying it to yourself.  I didn't accept myself until age 28.  The year 2010-2011 wasn't the best...I became paralyzed by depression and anxiety.  I was surrounded by a negative environment at work and at home while the relationship I was in continued to spiral downward.  I hated myself.  I hated my boyfriend.  I hated my life.  I hated my job.  I hated my car.  You name it, I probably hated it during that time.  

But, something amazing happened...I reached out for help.  I wanted to die.  And luckily that scared me.  I had coverage at work to start an intensive day program that was strong in Cognitive Behavioral therapy.  

And.....    

Verrrry long story short, I love myself today.  I may be very overweight and extremely physically unhealthy but I am extremely rich in my emotional health.  I have found that acceptance doesn't come from others.  It comes from you.  Your body doesn't make you the beautiful person you are.  I had a great group session last February where the counselor said..."you can't see how beautiful you are."  I shrugged it off and ignored it at the time, choosing to believe I am nothing because of my weight.

What an epiphany I had when I realized how beautiful I really am.

As I browsed some of the blogs on this site, I was surprised at how many people focused on how thin they will be, how great they will look, and how they can feel comfortable in public.  
Just a reminder to everyone...you gotta love and accept yourself first!

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