NYDeebo
For as long as I can remember I have always been FAT. Wow, that was an accomplishment in itself. Let me say that again, I am FAT. But soon, I will say "I was FAT". That is my goal, that is my quest.
Every quest has a beginning & I guess, the beginning here, is about a couple of years ago when I reached my peak weight of 425 lbs. Damn, was I really 425 lbs?? After looking at pictures of myself & home videos, yup, I was 425 lbs. My life was a wreck at that point, my personal life was in shambles, my psyche was trashed & my ego was non-existent & depression was my best friend. So I was doing what any person at that stage in their life would do, they either drink or they eat. I never really liked the taste of beer & I hated those morning after hang-overs, so the choice was pretty easy - I just ate & ate & ate. And when I finished eating, I had a snack. Exercise you ask? well, I don't know how many calories you burn walking from the couch to the kitchen, but whatever it was, multpily that # by about 10 (#of times I would go to the kitchen). I was a true mess, I started hating myself & I even got to the point where I took out all the mirrors in my home cause I couldn't stand looking at myself. The worst point in my life is when I even got suicidal thoughts. It just felt like my life was garbage & it was time to take it out.
But one day I just decided that I wasn't going to let my life be dictated by my fears of what others may think of me or what others may say about me. So I first joined a gym & then I slowly but steadly started losing weight. With the help of my friends & family I put all my fears aside & Then the lap-Band came into my life & ever since then I have known nothing but continued weight loss. As my weight has gone down my life hasn't gotten better & better - I am married to a wonderful woman who supports me every step of the way, & more importantly, I am now at a place where I love myself! - Every pound I lose is like a pat on the back & it just makes me want to work harder & harder. My goal is to eventually reach 200 lbs. Cause by then I know I will need one more surgery & that is the reconstructive procedures & after that - I will be even better!!
