oregon_girl1213
I am a 37 year old mother of 2 teenagers. I am married to the most wonderful man in the world. I have a wonderful career. Somewhere in all of this I lost myself. There are times I could blame the fact that I had a hysterectomy but so have other women. There are times I could say my first husband abused me but others have walked in those shoes as well. There are times that I could say because I was the victim of a brutal rape that I put on weight to hide. The truth is while all of this is true the most important thing in all of this is I LOST ME!
In October of 2008 I got to my breaking point. I broke down and cried and said I do not like what I have become. My weight has effected every aspect of my life. I don't like to go out because I feel like people stare at me. I don't like to stay home because I don't feel fulfilled in life. I get angry at my husband because he eats everything and cannot gain weight to save his life. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH! Well i used the phrase "if you don't like the movie, Change theaters." So I am Changing my theater!
I have quit smoking, I have found god!, I have worked on my demons, I have found the inner diva in me and now I will be making my outside match my inside! I WILL LOVE ME AGAIN! I am too young to feel as old as I feel and I am taking back my life. No longer will I let those that hurt me in my past control my future I have. I WILL LOVE ME AGAIN! From the inside out!
