Nichole F.
life
Apr 21, 2008
Just about a week ago. I was personally freaking out about a weight gain, and how I wished I wouldnt have had surgery... lol
Now im 50 lbs down in a month and 1/2 and I feel better ~ still on meds but I need them so I dont mind.
I only get on the scale on sundays ~ YA for me~
Thanks again to all who have helped me
Angela
Ruthann
Jodi
Rich
you all have helped to alot ~THANKS~
Better
Apr 11, 2008
Long story short ~ I needed to change anti-depressants. The one I was on wasnt working anymore.
I want to give a special thanks to Ruthann for reading my blog and worring so much she had problems sleeping
~Thank you Ruthann~
1 month
Apr 04, 2008
I dont feel the same ~ I never realized how much my life revolved around food and all my social activites. I cant hang out with my friends for long. Its like being on a diet that u cant cheat on. NO im not hungry but I still want ~taco bell, mcdonalds, choco., candy, CRAP.. it doesnt stop the cravings. I figured out I can eat till it hurts then i stop and wait throught (NO LESSON LEARNED) what is wrong with me? I am not going to be happy till I hurt myself.. all this pain and suffering for nothing? ITs like a drug addict do a program and run back to it once your done?? am I going to fail? I have nightmares over this whole thing and my depression is getting worse. I dont like people pointing out my weight loss... I dont like the attention. I thought i was ready I guess not..... WHAT HAVE I DONE?
11 days out
Mar 16, 2008
Its been a hugh turning point since yesterday. I slept for about 7 hours last night 
which is a big deal because im a 9 hr+ kinda person. I also slept in 3 ~ yes 3 different positions. I still have minor pain but nothing I cant handle. I think the hardest part abou being home is not bordom eat?? Im never truely hungery but i am REALLY bored so in turn I watch TV, watch the clock and think of all the foods I can have. Maybe once I can go back to work I will be better.
Im home :)
Mar 12, 2008
The only thing I wasnt prepared for was the pain. OMG
Right now I am not far enough into it to be asked if I would do it again.
So everthing went well, I seen Dr. Zeni yesterday at my 1 wk. He says I look good and look like im doing well. I only had one problem (no big deal) I had a reacation at one of the sights, looks alot better today.
So is the keep you informed stage. Talk to u soon
Goals!!
Feb 20, 2008
My biggest goal I want right here!!
That is not to be looked at like a circus freak anymore. :(
Thats for another time I will tell you the story after the sting is gone.
Endo today
Feb 18, 2008
It was "no big deal" I had it done at st. joes oakland everyone was so nice, my nurse (sue/Gail ~inside joke) was the best.
I went to sleep and woke up like nothing no pain, no soreness, just a little tired.
They wanted me to pee in a cup?? How in the world was I going to do that? I was NPO since 6 pm the night before and had nothing but toothpaste that morning YUMM!!
Took me 25 mins to come up with 2 drps... all for a pregnancy test.. I could have just told ya I wasnt... :)
Its been a while
Feb 11, 2008
I wasnt real happy with my 1st pick for a surgeon. (Dr. Cold and his merry maids of hags for staff), and my insurance would not approve me after I did everything they asked for???? So it must have been a blessing in disguise. I got new insurance jan. 1st 2008 and was sent to Dr. Zeni by a good friend (THANKS ANG.) and now everything is in motion I have a date and so far so good.
So im back and will let you know how it goes.
seen her
Feb 25, 2007
SO I have to wait until she grades my SCAN TRON test, which will talk about 2 weeks? HUH?
Mean time I have to lose 20lbs and im only down 5 :(
we'll see what happends.
Head Dr.
Feb 20, 2007
my appointment with her is wednesday (2-22-2006) I am not looking forward to that. She was unfriendly at best. She was upset about being unable to reach me (at my home) I also left her my work number. She said TWICE that she wanted to slap my son for not giving me a message. ~WOW~ that threw me back. I cancelled the appointment after that. Hoping for someone else. BUT NOOOOOOO, it ended up that I have to see her because no ones else takens my insurance. unless I want to pay $300.00. So I will release the sea hags name after my appointment and my clearnce letter.
