Pamela F.
I'm a proud Army wife, and mother of 4 kids of the fabulous variety. 4 years ago when my hubby came to me and said "I think I want to join the army" and I was like " uhhh what?" I realized my life was going to change dramatically. And it has. For the better in almost every way. I have met some of the best friends I will ever have. I have learned more about myself in these last 4 years than I ever thought I would know, and I have shown myself and my family just how strong I really can be.
With everything except food. Yes I am a complete food addict. Sugar in particular. Gimme a cookie, cake or something of that nature and I will show you a temporarily happy woman. But I want to be happy long term. I am tired of waking up realizing that I could have and should have done so much better.
It's not the exercise. Oh I LOVE the gym! One of the best perks of being a soldier's wife is the free gym. Our post has several really nice ones, and my best friend in the world AF goes with me so we keep each other motivated. I even managed to get down to 210 while he was deployed to Iraq thanks to AF and that lovely gym!
However... he comes back and it's right off the food wagon I go.. willingly, happily, jumping right off into the deep end. Fast food, junk food, all the stuff he's missed that whole long year. Gained 20lbs in the first 2 months. I'm not exaggerating.
So I started talking to my friend back home who had completed her RNY right before our move to the Ft. ... and at first she was miserable. So I sort of put it back in the back of my head as no ty I'll manage on my own. Only now... she's so HAPPY about it! So at peace with the decisions she's made and the things she has given up. I realized I WANT THAT!
Sidenote here.. My hubby does tattoos on the weekends. He LOVES it. Heck I love it.. sort of an ink junkie here. But anyways a lot of the women who come to him for tattoos have had the surgery. I was like wait Tricare pays for that? So I start asking em all kinds of questions. I'm sure I annoyed the hell outta some of em. I mean cmon they were there to get inked.. not grilled on wls. But I found out a ton. And I realized I wanted to look into it further. So I hit the internet, found this site and fell in like immediately. Called my primary, got the referral, went to the seminar, read a couple of books, had a consult, psych eval annnnd now here I am just waiting. For the record, I went into the seminar thinking lapband. Came out not liking it as much as I thought, but it was after the book that I decided that RNY was definitely a better fit for me and my needs. I pray I dump. I know it sounds odd but I really want this tool to work optimally for me and that is definitely one of my major issues (ohh sugar... awwww honey honey.. I love my candy wooo)
I AM READY! I have found support groups in my area, done my research, and am prepared for my journey to come. I say BRING IT ON 2011!! I'm ready to be on the loser's bench!
