Life Under Goal :)

Sep 29, 2009

Hello Everyone!

Well, I am now 130lbs - 6lbs under my goal.  I wear a size 3/4 now, and today I fit into a size 0 pencil skirt I bought second hand.  My bmi is now 20.4.  Oh, and I reached goal in about 4 and half months.  Gotta LOVE the sleeve!!!

I look better than I ever have in my life.  My husband told me the other day that I am way out of his league!  Yea, right crazy, crazy man!!   The summer of 2008, we were at a wedding and I overheard an aquaintance expressing her shock that THAT was my husband - what was he doing with ME?  It was humiliating.  I have always been a confident person, even when I was larger - but it was hard to shake that one.  Now I can walk beside my husband and feel like I belong with him. 

I have way more patience with my kids.  I can go have fun with them, and not feel self-concious and try to hide from the camera.  We got our family pictures done for the first time in years!  My younger daughter wrapped her arms around my waist and said, Wow Mommy, I can put my arms all the way around you - I didn't used to be able to do that!!!  My girls are so sweet!

I spend too much on clothes now!  I shop the Salvation Army and Value Village for deals and I find some spectacular goodies for next to nothing, but I still splurge on a few really nice new items.  Shopping is just a little too much fun when you feel good about how you look.  I just dropped $400 on a new designer leather jacket.  Oooops! Shhhh.... don't tell the hubs!  lol

I'm not perfect by any means.  I have extra skin on my arms, but it's not too bad and I've been wearing sleeveless tops anyway.  I have stretch marks from my pregnancies that go up past my belly button, so what's a few more scars from the vsg?! And I have saggy skin on my tummy.   I thought about getting a tummy tuck, because it's free here in Saskatchewan, but I don't think I will bother.  It's been getting less saggy, and now it doesn't even hang over anymore - so I even look ok in teeny tiny panties (tmi, I know, I know!)  I also lost my boobs!  I used to have big 'uns.  But now they are just a handful.  To be honest, from the front they look pretty great and from the side - they just look pretty deflated!  I think I like 'em small now though :)  Oh - and my knees & back don't hurt anymore!  How cool is that?! 

I have a hard time getting in enough calories.  I am doing better now though.  I am averaging between 1200 and 1300 calories a day.  I am trying to get up to about 1600 a day to maintain.  If anyone has some good tips, PM me!!! 

I have trained in martial arts since I was a teenager.  I haven't been able to go back to the dojo since my surgery.  My doctor says once I haven't dropped any weight for a month and get my calories consistenly high enough, she will clear me to compete again.  I am pretty pumped about getting back in the ring and getting my ass handed to me!  I may be getting crushed on the mats, but I am gonna look damn good in my new gi!  haha

What else can I tell you?  This has been a hell of a ride.  I had more complications and problems than most folks ever will (stricture, nausea, heart burn, lactose intolerance, infection), and there were moments I wondered if I had done the right thing.  But those moments were gone in a flash as the weight melted off.   To be honest - I lost the weight, and I found myself.  For the first time in my life I control the food I eat, and not the other way around.  I am not hungry, I am not thinking about what I am going to eat next as I stuff my face.  It's so liberating!  

If you are thinking about doing this for yourself, for your health, for your future - do it.  Take the plunge - the water's waaarm baby!!!

xo

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