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These two days were pretty uneventful. I started eating a little more food like refried beans and deli meat. I stepped on the scale and noticed that I had gained about 4lbs. Is this because I'm starting to eat real food now? I really hope it is just my body adjusting and I will start to lose again. 

I found most of my vitamins but I can't find a chewable B-Complex or Vitamin-D. 

CAN I JUST SLEEP!!!! THAT IS ALL I ASK!!!!! If I can't sleep on my side or tummy then I really can't sleep.  

All I'm really eating is yogurt for breakfast, soup, and a little bit of protein drink.

I am still weighing 249.5. I wish I could lose just another pound. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid now if I start to eat that I will gain it back. 

I can't thank all of my friends enough for their support. Everyone has been great.

I'm starting to wonder if I'm thinking too much about food and what I'm going to eat next.

I wish I could sleep. I really hate this waking up every few hours during the night. I am trying to walk a little more around the house and to get out to go to places with my son. I am still on a liquid diet and I'm adding yogurt to my diet as well. I have just a couple of more days before I can add more food to my diet. 

I am at 249.5 according to my scale but I will wait until I go to the doctor to see what his number says. 

That is about 12lb loss at this time.

Today, 

I woke up about two times one at 3am and again at 7am. I wish I could just sleep without feeling pain in the back or just being uncomfy. I woke up and had a cup of chocolate milk at 4am. It tasted great. I'm sure I shouldn't have had it but I needed something. I also this morning after my second wakening had yogurt. It was apple turnover, it had a couple of tiny pieces of apple in it so I just chewed and chewed. 

I went out with my sister to get out of the house. I have to keep moving or my back will kill me. I really didn't have lunch and didn't think about it until it was almost dinner time. My sister made some chili so I just had some of the soup part. It was great. I just loved the taste better than broth. 

I did change up and get some diet ice tea to drink which I'm enjoying I think a little too much but it is something different and refreshing. I'm really wanting to get something solid to eat but I know I can't. 

I weighed myself today. I know I shouldn't do this but according the scale I'm down 8lbs already. I know that most of this is water weight since I've been having really bad BM. 

I will see about something for a late night snack.

Well, 

I felt sick most of friday. I didn't get any protein drink in because every time I thought about it I got sick to my stomach.  I had couple of jellos, some broth, and water. I rested and my back was killing me. I just hope this feeling goes away soon. I can't handle it.

This morning I woke up with a bowel movement and it was nothing but liquid. I thought great this isn't what I need in the morning. I called the Ask A Nurse number given to me if I have any questions so I call and was told call the doctor office. I of course did that and left a message for the oncall doctor. I got a phone call back saying this is a normal question and to wait until the nurse is in to get it answered.

WHY IN THE HELL COULDN'T YOU JUST TELL ME!!! YOU LEFT A MESSAGE TO TELL ME TO CALL BACK IT WOULD HAVE BEEN JUST AS EASY TO TELL ME!!!!!!!!

Well, yesterday was fun trying to get out of bed, eating food, and going to the restroom. I did have jello for lunch and dinner. For breakfast I had a grape popsicle such yummy meals. I did try some protein drink called Isopure zero carb. It was a alpine punch and it tastes like watered down fruit punch.

Last night I talked to a friend Steve, it was great hearing his voice after not talking to him in about a six months to a year. It helped take my mind off of other things.

I laid on my back to sleep and it felt good to lay down and not sleep upwward and having a stiff neck.

I am eating J-E-L-L-O .... It is orange. It is nice to have something good ok well as good as it can be right?

I just brushed my teeth because I had the blood taste in my mouth and I decided to get a grape popsicle for breakfast. Hey didn't mom say no treats before meals?   Well I can tell you it doesn't taste good at all. YUCK!!!!!!!!

Well, I'm home got home about 5pm after mom stopping and getting the meds from the store. I was given hydrocodone which I have to take every 4 hours when I'm not feeling pain. I went straight to bed got on the computer for a few minutes said hello to friends and fell asleep. I kept getting phone calls so I had to just turn off the phone. 

I woke up every few hours, and at about midnight I took my temp and I was at about 93F and then again at about 2am it was 95F and now at 5am it is at 97.7. I'm happy to see my temp go up. I'm still just on ice and water. I think in a while I will do some popsicles to see how that works. I do have staples ontop of my ports and they were also stitched up. So that is where we are now.