perfectlyflawed1981
Well let's see I am now 29 years old. Mother of 3 beautiful baby boys, ages 8, 6 and 5. They are my world. But let's start at the beginning :)
My entire life I have been "chunky" "heavy" "Fat" "obese". I think the only time I was "normal" weight was when I was a baby, but by 4 I was already "bigger" than all the other kids my age, and I'm not talking height, being that I am barely over 5foot tall now. I put up with so much stuff from everyone. Sad but true including my Family. I was bigger than 2 of my older sisters and I was the baby of the family. My Dad would make remarks, and call names. It wasn't until the 2 older sisters started putting on weight that he decided we all had to go on a diet. So at 13 I started my first "Diet". At this time I also played football for my Middle school, and still weighed in at 180 lbs. Yup I was a defensive lineman, Hal's Hawgs. So I wasn't living a seditary life. I had sprints, drills and laps to do 4 days a week. I never lost any weight.
My Mom, would always tell me that I was just like every other woman in our family, we came from "big stock". So I went the route of weight trainging come high school, and dropped football. I saw the most difference in my legs, but I still had the "Dunlap" Belly". I cannot remember a time when I didn't have it. I hate it. No amount of workouts help.
High School SUCKED. I really do not want to remember al that. But suffice it to say, I weighed in at 180 in 9th grade, and by graduation I was 200 lbs. It might not seem like much in comparison to some stories I have read, but I am 5 ft 1/2 inch tall. And yes I count that half of an inch because it made me taller than both my Grandmothers :)
Got married right after HS, to my very first real BF. I dropped weight, when we moved out on our own, probably because we couln't afford much of anything. But I got down to about 175 mark. Fast forward 2 years, pregnant, miserable in the summer heat in GA. sitting at 210 pounds, but I'm full blown preganant. Decide this has got to change. Terrance was born late June. C-section, put a crimp in all the well laid plans. by the time I was able to get up and do the things I wanted without worry it was so hot just going outside would suffocate you. :(
Moved to CT, when Shaun joined the Navy. The weight had piled back on and I was up to 210 lbs. with a 9 month old to care for. UGH!!! I slowly started to lose the weight, don't ask me how I have no clue. Wasn't dieting, wasn't anything but being with my son.
Lost down to my magic 175 mark again. This seems to be the mark where I stop losing any weight. a Plateau if you will. Second pregnancy comes along, and I gain like maybe 5 lbs the entire pregnancy, and not because I wasn't eating because I ate like a HORSE!!! After tony was born, had my gallbladder removed, and dropped down to 160ish. Well in all the excitement that it everyday life, I ended up pregnant again... I have irish twins, they are the same age for a month and a few days......So again with my pregnancy with Trent, I didn't gain any weight, for the most part I dropped 5 when I first found out due to morning sickness, but once I had him and the "Baby weight" came off I was sitting at 140 lbs!!!!!! I was absolutely AMAZED. I loved it, I started walking with the boys, and riding an old bike. I even went to the gym a few times, with people from work. I felt awesome, but I still haven't figured out what caused the weight loss, because all that weight started to come right back on again. Since then we have moved to VA. Gotten Divorced, and it's an emotional struggle along with a weight struggle.
So here I sit typing this for everyone to read, and I am at 205 lbs again, and miserable. I am the smallest one out of my mom's daughters, but I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I want to be around for my kids, and know I can do things with them. I am tired if the medicine, for my cholesterol, for acid reflux, the hip and knee problems. My Fiance, loves everything about me, and I know it deep in my heart, but this is a personel struggle that I have to deal with. That's why I made an Appt with Dr Terracina, Tommy and I went to the orientation and he came away relieved at what he had heard and seen. So onward comes the stuggles, but I know in the end it will be well worth it to be around for my kids, grandkids and great grandkids. And to be able to spend the rest of my life with my soul mate, and love of my life, Tommy. :)
