Piglet
Update 2/13/08
Feb 13, 2008
It has been a while since I journaled. I guess I got busy. I am now at 250. That is a 65 pound loss. For a while I felt like a failure for not losing as fast as others, but now I realize that this is my journey and I feel great!
Personal achievements:
--Pant Size 26 to 20
--Fitting those jeans from high school
--Exercising daily
--Challenging myself in Kickboxing and Super Step aerobic classes
--30 +inches of me gone
--no seat belt extender on the plane
--being able to put the tray table down on the plane
--Saying "NO" to unhealthy foods
--Fitting in the bathtub with room to spare
--Seeing my husband so happy and proud
--Feeling bones
--Off of antidepressants and all other meds except for the vitamins
--BMI from 51 to 40
Personal achievements:
--Pant Size 26 to 20
--Fitting those jeans from high school
--Exercising daily
--Challenging myself in Kickboxing and Super Step aerobic classes
--30 +inches of me gone
--no seat belt extender on the plane
--being able to put the tray table down on the plane
--Saying "NO" to unhealthy foods
--Fitting in the bathtub with room to spare
--Seeing my husband so happy and proud
--Feeling bones
--Off of antidepressants and all other meds except for the vitamins
--BMI from 51 to 40
August 2007
Aug 30, 2007
August 3, 2007
I survived the surgery but still working on the recovery. Everyone at that hospital was great! I am having although really bad cramping and diarrhea. I even had an ultra sound on my legs because of pain but I am clot free. Just water and Gatorade are giving me so much trouble I am afraid to down the protein, but I know it is a must. My husband and sister have been great at caring for my G-tube but I get this real bad pain around it that keeps me on the pain meds every 3-4 hours. I am up and moving at least once an hour. Still wondering what in the >>>>>did I do to my body. Craps are getting bad I need to walk it out--oooooooeeeeee.
Aug 7, 2007
I have been busy the last two days shopping with mom and sisters as they were getting tired of sitting around the house. The mall is a great place to walk it out because of the AC and frequent benches. I am amazed at how much my energy has increased in the the past few days and I learned to care for my own G-tube, getting up and down on my own, and even less help in the bathroom and showering. I even went to the pool and put my legs in when they went swimming. I went to my post op appointment to have my staples removed today. Lost 7 pounds since the beginning but was hoping more. Dropped mom and sisters at the airport and now can get back to a schedule of sorts. I will be tracking the protein and calories more and getting on the treadmill a few times a day. I am really tired of sitting around and want to get moving but will have to do the best with the G-tube still in my side until Sept 5. I am struggling some with finding salty purees that I like and have now resigned that I may be a little lactose intolerant, which is a bummer when getting all of that protein in. I plan to play around with blending some different proteins so that I can take more by mouth rather than putting in the tube. I am now only using the pain meds to sleep at night. Brad will be working for the next few days so I will take some time to focus on prayer, reading, exercise and drinking more water.
August 13, 2007
I went to the Y today for a stretch and tone class and walked a mile in 27 minutes. My scale is reading 300 so that mean a loss of 15 lbs since surgery. I am now facing constipation and took milk of magnesia today and will try prune juice tomorrow. I am going to get my hair cut and colored tomorrow after a class as the Y designed for Seniors--surely I can handle that. I cannot believe that I am back to work in two days as I was beginning to like having nothing to do but sleep, exercise, and take care of myself.
August 18, 2007
Great news is that I am down 17 pounds and now officially in the 200s. It have not seen that two in over a year. On the bad side of things getting back to work has been a nightmare. I have an hour drive there and back thus making it a 10 hour day. My job is not physically demanding but I having trouble focusing on my clients and typing with the G-tube pain. I also get very tired and have trouble staying alert with the long drive. Did I mention the hemrroids -- I begged my husband go out to Walgreens at 11 pm for some type of cream last night. I called Kevin about the G-tube pain and he reports that it is "par for the course" I guess that means I need to refill the Lortab to stay sain in the next few weeks. I've been going to the Y for flex fitness classes in the morning but find that I am exhausted when I get home from work that I cannot get on the treadmill--maybe when this tube is out.
August 22, 2006
I know this is a little gross. But let' face it everyone has to poop! I am just really stuck right now when it comes to elimination so much so that I don't want to eat. The hemrroids have got the best of me and nothing over the counter will do the job. I drink MOM, prune juice, and crunch on these fiber one tablets and still not much relief -not to mention the hemroid cream etc. I tried to crush a colace stool softer but the taste was intolerable. I will go to my PCP first thing tomorrow. Any suggetion all veteran RNYrs? As I know this is usually a problem for a while. Thanks.
August 22, 2007
Let's talk about being wiped out. I look like death warmed over lately since returning to work. I am usually a morning person but have been dragging in at about 10ish which makes for a late night. Water has been hard to swallow recently and caused hiccups and burping throughout the day. I cannot believe I am still using the pain meds for my G-tube. I had gotten down to just one dose at night and today I took two does at work because of that darn tube. Good thing I can handle the stuff well. Still not exercising much though. I need to find a job closer to home so that I can spend more time exercising and less time driving each each day. One of the familes that I work with heard that I was having surgery and sent me a big fancy box of chocolates--bless them--they had no clue what type of surgery. I took a small bite, let it melt in my mouth, felt fine, but did not want venture any further--so I had fun passing it out to my coworkers. Don't think I've ever turned down chocolate--It's a miracle.
August 30, 2007
Just really emotional today and need to write it down. At the support group meeting on Monday Kevin brought out the scale and I was just curious to see if it matched the one I had at home which read 292 that morning. I was very happy with my loss of 23 pounds my first month. When I got on that scale it read 281 and I almost passed out. I really did not believe that I had lost 34 pounds-- I did not see it in my body or my clothes that much at least. So I spent the last few days wondering which scale was the most accurate--as excited a I was about the big loss-- I was afraid that it may be just a error. Today I got on the scale in the nurses office at work and it was confirmed 280. Still so many mixed emotions and bad thoughts popping into my head like--what if I don't want to eat anymore and loose too much weight and get sick--what am I going to do now in the place of eating--why am I so sad and scared when I should be jumping for joy.
August 31, 2007
I think it is time that I return the scale and weight just once a week at work. Yes my relationship with food has changed. Trying hard to find things that I enjoy eating as eating seems to have become a chore. It used to be "when can I eat" and now it more like "you mean I have to eat again" Feel like I am starting all over again with my sippie cup and baggie of cherrios. I am not mouring that I cannot have those bad things I used to eat I am mourning the fact that I don't want to eat at all. I am repulsed by all food really and am searching for something that I can actually look forward to eating. Could not wait for soft mushy stage and now I don't even care. Food seems to still have the upper hand. Time for me to take charge.
I survived the surgery but still working on the recovery. Everyone at that hospital was great! I am having although really bad cramping and diarrhea. I even had an ultra sound on my legs because of pain but I am clot free. Just water and Gatorade are giving me so much trouble I am afraid to down the protein, but I know it is a must. My husband and sister have been great at caring for my G-tube but I get this real bad pain around it that keeps me on the pain meds every 3-4 hours. I am up and moving at least once an hour. Still wondering what in the >>>>>did I do to my body. Craps are getting bad I need to walk it out--oooooooeeeeee.
Aug 7, 2007
I have been busy the last two days shopping with mom and sisters as they were getting tired of sitting around the house. The mall is a great place to walk it out because of the AC and frequent benches. I am amazed at how much my energy has increased in the the past few days and I learned to care for my own G-tube, getting up and down on my own, and even less help in the bathroom and showering. I even went to the pool and put my legs in when they went swimming. I went to my post op appointment to have my staples removed today. Lost 7 pounds since the beginning but was hoping more. Dropped mom and sisters at the airport and now can get back to a schedule of sorts. I will be tracking the protein and calories more and getting on the treadmill a few times a day. I am really tired of sitting around and want to get moving but will have to do the best with the G-tube still in my side until Sept 5. I am struggling some with finding salty purees that I like and have now resigned that I may be a little lactose intolerant, which is a bummer when getting all of that protein in. I plan to play around with blending some different proteins so that I can take more by mouth rather than putting in the tube. I am now only using the pain meds to sleep at night. Brad will be working for the next few days so I will take some time to focus on prayer, reading, exercise and drinking more water.
August 13, 2007
I went to the Y today for a stretch and tone class and walked a mile in 27 minutes. My scale is reading 300 so that mean a loss of 15 lbs since surgery. I am now facing constipation and took milk of magnesia today and will try prune juice tomorrow. I am going to get my hair cut and colored tomorrow after a class as the Y designed for Seniors--surely I can handle that. I cannot believe that I am back to work in two days as I was beginning to like having nothing to do but sleep, exercise, and take care of myself.
August 18, 2007
Great news is that I am down 17 pounds and now officially in the 200s. It have not seen that two in over a year. On the bad side of things getting back to work has been a nightmare. I have an hour drive there and back thus making it a 10 hour day. My job is not physically demanding but I having trouble focusing on my clients and typing with the G-tube pain. I also get very tired and have trouble staying alert with the long drive. Did I mention the hemrroids -- I begged my husband go out to Walgreens at 11 pm for some type of cream last night. I called Kevin about the G-tube pain and he reports that it is "par for the course" I guess that means I need to refill the Lortab to stay sain in the next few weeks. I've been going to the Y for flex fitness classes in the morning but find that I am exhausted when I get home from work that I cannot get on the treadmill--maybe when this tube is out.
August 22, 2006
I know this is a little gross. But let' face it everyone has to poop! I am just really stuck right now when it comes to elimination so much so that I don't want to eat. The hemrroids have got the best of me and nothing over the counter will do the job. I drink MOM, prune juice, and crunch on these fiber one tablets and still not much relief -not to mention the hemroid cream etc. I tried to crush a colace stool softer but the taste was intolerable. I will go to my PCP first thing tomorrow. Any suggetion all veteran RNYrs? As I know this is usually a problem for a while. Thanks.
August 22, 2007
Let's talk about being wiped out. I look like death warmed over lately since returning to work. I am usually a morning person but have been dragging in at about 10ish which makes for a late night. Water has been hard to swallow recently and caused hiccups and burping throughout the day. I cannot believe I am still using the pain meds for my G-tube. I had gotten down to just one dose at night and today I took two does at work because of that darn tube. Good thing I can handle the stuff well. Still not exercising much though. I need to find a job closer to home so that I can spend more time exercising and less time driving each each day. One of the familes that I work with heard that I was having surgery and sent me a big fancy box of chocolates--bless them--they had no clue what type of surgery. I took a small bite, let it melt in my mouth, felt fine, but did not want venture any further--so I had fun passing it out to my coworkers. Don't think I've ever turned down chocolate--It's a miracle.
August 30, 2007
Just really emotional today and need to write it down. At the support group meeting on Monday Kevin brought out the scale and I was just curious to see if it matched the one I had at home which read 292 that morning. I was very happy with my loss of 23 pounds my first month. When I got on that scale it read 281 and I almost passed out. I really did not believe that I had lost 34 pounds-- I did not see it in my body or my clothes that much at least. So I spent the last few days wondering which scale was the most accurate--as excited a I was about the big loss-- I was afraid that it may be just a error. Today I got on the scale in the nurses office at work and it was confirmed 280. Still so many mixed emotions and bad thoughts popping into my head like--what if I don't want to eat anymore and loose too much weight and get sick--what am I going to do now in the place of eating--why am I so sad and scared when I should be jumping for joy.
August 31, 2007
I think it is time that I return the scale and weight just once a week at work. Yes my relationship with food has changed. Trying hard to find things that I enjoy eating as eating seems to have become a chore. It used to be "when can I eat" and now it more like "you mean I have to eat again" Feel like I am starting all over again with my sippie cup and baggie of cherrios. I am not mouring that I cannot have those bad things I used to eat I am mourning the fact that I don't want to eat at all. I am repulsed by all food really and am searching for something that I can actually look forward to eating. Could not wait for soft mushy stage and now I don't even care. Food seems to still have the upper hand. Time for me to take charge.
July 2007
Aug 30, 2007
July 20, 2007
It is day 3 of 14 on this pre-op diet. On days one and two well let's just say I was not so good. I drank the slim fast for breakfast and lunch but found myself with intense head aches and feeling very weak. So at dinner I was not really being all out low carb. I was just so hungry and wanting relief that I ate the potates that my husband made for himself. I hope to do better today. The count down begins 13 day to go!!!!
July 27, 2007
It's the day after pre-op and I am exhausted and overloaded with with info. Just 5 more days left!
July 30, 2007
Cried all night on my husband's chest. I guess I have just been holding it in for too long. I am not scared just anxious to get it over with. I bombed the pre-op diet and did not lose much so of course I am alreadly feelings like a failure before it begins. Two more days to go and I promised myself and really more Brad that I would "be good." I have lots to do at work to prepare for my leave and am struggling to focus without food. Tomorrow is clear liquids--that should be fun.
It is day 3 of 14 on this pre-op diet. On days one and two well let's just say I was not so good. I drank the slim fast for breakfast and lunch but found myself with intense head aches and feeling very weak. So at dinner I was not really being all out low carb. I was just so hungry and wanting relief that I ate the potates that my husband made for himself. I hope to do better today. The count down begins 13 day to go!!!!
July 27, 2007
It's the day after pre-op and I am exhausted and overloaded with with info. Just 5 more days left!
July 30, 2007
Cried all night on my husband's chest. I guess I have just been holding it in for too long. I am not scared just anxious to get it over with. I bombed the pre-op diet and did not lose much so of course I am alreadly feelings like a failure before it begins. Two more days to go and I promised myself and really more Brad that I would "be good." I have lots to do at work to prepare for my leave and am struggling to focus without food. Tomorrow is clear liquids--that should be fun.
About Me
Orange City, FL
Location
40.4
BMI
Surgery
08/01/2007
Surgery Date
Jun 24, 2007
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