PlumpBerry
Journey
Feb 23, 2011
I've wanted WLS for so long. I went to my first Seminar in 2006. Then I found out that my insurance that had covered it, no longer did. So I just kept on wanting and trying on my own. Weight watcher's, Gym memberships, bought an elliptical, bought a total gym, tried weight watcher again, found out my thyroid is a mess, found out my lipids and triglycerides are a mess, tried some more. Sooo frustrated.
Then came into a little money-and I mean little. But I thought, I will go to another Seminar and see if the price changed. It did, but not enough. So I had 3 options, go out of country-too scary for me, take out a loan-still too scary, or go without. I looked into taking a loan but before I did I opted to called a hospital closer to my home to see what it cost private pay there. The price was staggering. Then they asked what insurance I had-I told them. The Insurance had changed again, and now it is covered...but I had a 6 month medically supervised weight loss requirement.
I thought "Are you kidding me, I've been trying for years,seeing a doctor for years and 6 months from now I could be well on way to healthier me. But for the cost of a copay and no loan...ok I'll jump through your hoops."
SOOOOO finally months have passed and I have a surgery date for this April. I'm so excited but scared. What about the pain? What about the risks? What if I can't change my habits and don't lose or regain later? What will i do with my feelings if I can't eat them? :)
I want this so badly..but I've never been successful long term...
I wonder if other folks feel/felt this way about their journey