Prtewitty
I got married in October 2005 and my husband is very supportive of me.
I am generally a happy person. I enjoy being the social butterfly that I am. The majority of the activities I once enjoyed so much have been scaled down over the last few years. As my weight has increased my activity level has decreased. I know that in order for this trend to turn around I have to reverse the flow. I have had a few events in my life over the last 3 years that contribute to the damming up of progress. I can't change any of this. But, I would like to improve the situation. I look back on all of those years that maybe I could have really lost the weight before it was out of control...could I have?? I was able bodied and younger. If I knew then what I know now..as the saying goes. That time I lost down 2 sizes in 6 weeks by exercise alone..why didn't I keep up the good work? It is to late now..I can't go back. I can only look forward to tomorrow. I realized the other day that people have all kinds of hopes and dreams. Right now the only goal, hope, or dream for me is to be a healthier, thinner, smarter version of me.
March 2006
I have been approved and have a date for April 11th
April 4, 2006
I have less than a week to go and I am more than nervous. I have done some crazy things- not dangerous- just crazy- in preparation for my big day. I will be moving right after I have surgery and I think the stress of it is not helping. I feel as if I am leaving everything I ever knew behind. What will I do to cope with all of this emotion??? Eating is no longer the answer- I could barely walk today from hip pain- so exercise is not ideal. What to do..what to do.
April 9. 2006
It's almost time for bed and that means when I wake up tomorrow I'll have one more day to go of this liquid diet- and anxiety! I lost 10 lbs. of water weight the first day - I guess I was trying to be like Sally the Camel:) I hate taking Fleets Phospa-soda, it has to be one of the foulest liquids known to man. I will never get used to it nor do I want to. Tomorrow I take all of my antibiotics- not to sure what that will mean for my day- hopefuly not sick like I was all day today. I am almost there..I keep telling myself. I have managed to get all the wayto this point without finalizing the details of who is taking care of my children while I am in the hospital. I have people to do it- I just don't know who is ....I know..I should be ashamed. I feel somewhat pathetic because all I can think about is a greasy McDonald's Double Cheeseburger because i am so hungry. An I wonder how I became so large....
April 16, 2006
Almost at the one week mark. Everything went very well- I guess ( I was asleep and just have to take Dr. Lords word for it:) ) I will weigh in on Wednesday for an official weigh in - but looks like I have lost about 20 lbs and 10 inches all over. Waist is the same- I am stil swollen and hurting. Everything improves a litle bit every day for me. Before you know it I will be putting my own socks on and not trying to get the dog to pull them off;) Dr Lord and the nursing staff at Sacred Heart was great! I hated calling a million times during the night to go pee AGAIN!!!! I have pride issues and am so used to being so independant that getting everyone to do so much for me kind of makes me irritiable. I am gona make sure I go by the nurses station to let them know how much I apprecitaed them. It helped a lot that at 3 of them have had the surgery- You got all 3 perspectives and stages they were in. The student nurses were just as sweet as pie! My Lortab is kickin my booty and I am just gonna update more later. OH!!!! I took a shower today! Funny how the little things in life make us happy.
May 23, 2006
Been busy busy busy! Have moved, started a new job, a new exercise routine, a new life in general. I am down as of last Friday 32 lbs. the saturday before I measured almost 29 inches down...it's all worth it. I have some days that are not so good..but I would say I have more good than bad. Not able to eat a lot of different foods yet but it's ok. I will live. I am allowed to have them..I'm just not tolerating them well.
June 19, 2006
Still just as busy as ever- I wish I could make more time for me in my day. Down 46 lbs- 43 inches. I am beginning to think I will never reach daily intake goals. I should have been meeting them a long time ago. I honestly think I still don't eat as much as I should- I know I don't drink as much as I should. I don't think I am a bad patient- or at least I never have been in the past. But now everything has changed. It takes me about 3 hours to drink a bottle of water- and that's in between talking to customers on the phone and in person. I find myself taking drinks mid sentence due to my throat being so dry it starts to burn. I have not been exercising like I should and that just makes me feel even worse about the whole situation. Weight loss has slowed to a very slow crawl- only about 10 lbs in the last month or so. I dunno- maybe I'm just having a bad few days here and need to kick myself into gear. I wish junk food could be banned from the office setting altogether. Someone told me to rememebr that it's not like the 1st time I would have ever tried the food. I have had them all before- It sort of helped
July 3, 2006
Doing a little better everyday. Now down 51 lbs and 55 inches.
August 31, 2006
My entire life has been turned upside down- just when I thought more drama couldn't exist..it does. I have been going to the gym pretty faithfully and measured last on Aug. 11th. That was my 4 month mark. I had lost 68.5 inches I am now down about 70 pounds. I hired a personal trainer to help me know what to do every week at the gym and I think it helps me get in there like I should. I know I am building muscle but I still wish the scale would move.
October 13, 2006
Still hanging in there. The scale started moving again. Life is still crazy. Terying to figure out how I put another pic on here.
